so alone.

I just dont know what to do with myself...feel so alone without him by my side. I dunno...I think I'll just sit in the corner and curl up in a little ball. I think this is my weakest point. It's so difficult to let go of someone you love.

At this point, I just wish I could just wake up from this horrible nightmare to find him smiling at me. But I cant. It wont happen. It's time to move on. It's so difficult when everywhere I look I just see things that remind me of him. sigh...I hope I get over this soon. I dont know how long I can take this misery.

On the brighter side of things, my aunty is coming to melb in a few days. She's not my favourite person in the world, but at least she's a familiar face from Brunei right ? Hopefully she comes bringing stuff. *grins evilly*

Yea anyways, watched the rugby match between the Wallabies and the All Blacks. I kind of expected the All Blacks to win...but hey, shit happens eh? The highlight of the night was that I got to see the band that sings the song that goes "...give me 20 good reason to let you go..." (I dont know the title..), and I managed to see the Hakka...it was awesome!!! Something really stupid happened at the end of the match though...some hard core Wallabies fan gave me a kiss on the cheek...he was drunk and I was disgusted...anyways, that's that...I'm gonna go and try to be happy. But kinda tough seeing as there's no one home and I'm all alone...physically and mentally...laterz..