on the verge of a breakup..

I'm standing at the edge...just about to fall..but you're not there to catch me...you havent been there for me for a long time already. I think this is the end. You dont love me, you dont stand up for your feelings. All I every get from you is...really ? I don't know oh...mmm...ok loh...thats all I ever hear from you.

I tried calling you so many times yesterday but you were asleep. Fine, there's no harm in sleeping. When I woke up, all I got was 2 msn messages saying.."you called me last night ? I was sleeping.." THATS ALL I F*ING GOT!!! Is that what a bf says to his gf after not talking to her for 4 days ? I said it's almost 6 months that we've been together and we're breaking up. And what did you say ? "Ya loh"...I think this is in fact the end. I cant stand talking to you anymore...everytime I say something, it always takes you so long to find something to say in reply. Normal people arent like that....What the hell is wrong with you...?

I always feel so left out with you. I try to make the best of things but lets face it...I can never be #1 like you say I am...I always lose out to something...it just has to be something...it's either a tv show...your brother...It's always something...I've had enough...I dont want to play second fiddle anymore...I've had it...if I cant be primary to you...then I guess I'll have to live without being anything to you...after all...you really dont love me....if you really did love me, you'd have stood up for your feelings...but you just said...ya lor...geez....I no longer have anything to say...