all alone...nothing new

Now I'm all alone again. Feeling empty and lost. I dont know how it all came down to this. I really thought he loved me. But apparently that wasnt the case. Oh well. Like Rabbit said...deal with it and move on. But...I'm not ready to move on. I miss him..but he doesnt feel the same. Sometimes, I feel he just says what I want to hear and I dont think that's right. So we'll just leave it at that. Put a smile on my face and hopefully people wont see right through it.

Anyhooz..my last paper is coming up real fast. I just want to get it over and done with then release stress on the snow. Just need some way to get over the pain. I know it's only been a day and it's way too soon to be over anything but I've got to try right ? Cant let all this nonsense hold me back. If he's not gonna even try to treat me the way I should be treated then maybe it's just not meant to be. This relationship had been slipping and falling apart for a long time now and we acknowledged it. I tried to do something about it. But he didnt so I guess we just didnt work. I still love him and all but it's just a lot of love lost. Oh well. Just wanted to let all you concerned people know that I'm fine and I wont be doing anything stupid. So yea.

Gotta go focus all my stress and frustrations on criminology. See ya all in the next post. Cheerz...