damned if I do, damned if I dont..

Its times like these where I wish I'd stayed in Melbourne for the summer...I had a great day today...but it all ended pretty shittily...I managed to get my hair highlighted at shahdon's and aaron and kai took the excess of my hair dye FOR FREE!! Well, you cant say that I took aaron out by force coz he wanted to go out as well...we got yelled at for coming back slightly late...was waiting for shahdon to get done with Aaron...I thought the scolding was for the both of us...but NO...it was ALL directed at me...then dad was like...I dont need you...if I needed something done, I'd have done it all myself...*ouch*

Then I figured I'd stay at home tomorrow to help with the preparation for the party so I told aaron I wouldnt be going to Bunkers and to find a ride home if he could...of course it all got ingested wrongly so it seemed as though I purposely didnt want to pick him up...so I got scolded again..damned if I do, damned if I dont right ? I just sat there, accepting the scolding and I was confused as to what to think...apparently I was trying to "show my colours" in front of dad...WTF?!! All this time, I've been spending money on the boy...taking the blame for him...talking to the dad so that he could get the green light for his party plans..and THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING GET? geeez...thanks a lot...thats a nice gesture...

MELBOURNE, I miss you..:( please come take me away!!!

Two words from a wise friend "FUCK IT!!"