unhappy

I dont get why I'm so unhappy. This morning, I woke up thinking "Shit my boss is supposed to call me" then I had thoughts such as "I hope he fires me" and "how do I tell him I dont want to work anymore" running through my head. I mean, I still want a letter of reference but I dont know how to go about all this. I dont know. It's so confusing.

I'm really not cut out for this line of work. It's very stressful to my life outside work. I know I know. It's only 2 days a week but I just dont know how much of this I can take anymore. It's not the people, the people I work with are great. It's just having to confront people in shopping malls who blow up in your face, it's the case of people walking the extra metre to avoid the radius around the booth just so that you cant reach them. You get nicknamed the 'annoying' person. I have actually seen old ladies walking slowly with their strollers then when you say hi, they magically pick up speed. I mean, I try my best not to be annoying but you know, I guess it goes with the territory.

I really dont know how to go about this. I dont know if I should call the boss now so that he doesnt call in my class later on. Or just wait and see what happens coz even my team leader was being so cryptic. I told her something along the grounds of when I'd be quitting and she sounded like she was dropping me like a hot potato. I really dont like this feeling but if it really makes me unhappy, is it REALLY worth doing ?

Damn. I hate being put in this situation. I'd rather sit through 7 hours of lit coz that's how boring it is anyways. At least by sitting through my lit classes, I can either learn something valuable about how poets and patrons act in the olden days or I could catch up on much needed sleep. LoL. I dont think I have the stamina or the mindset to work this type of occupation but then again, that's just me.