just jealous..

..I lost respect for you since I was 12....this is directed to one person and one person only...
"...what I learned is to respect is to gain respect in return.." That was a line from my personal statement. This person I was initially talking about ready my CONFIDENTIAL personal statement, and said that she was laughing the whole time coz apparently, it was all bullshit...the nerve of her..

Lets see...she only sees me less than an hour a day. I lost repect for her since I was really young coz apparently my theory of respect doesnt work with her...she doesnt respect me as an individual...more like a doormat really. So, if you treat people like shit...they will return the favour. Enjoying the fruits of your labour? I really HATE you...I have hated you since a really young age...you and your 'habit'...causing me and the rest of the family extra unnecessary stress...making me work so much harder just to get where I am now...in a way...i'm grateful...but don't go dissing MY personal statement that I did, no thanks to you. Just coz I had a small dedication to your significant other and I didnt even mention you once in the whole essay...face it, you're not all that important to me. If I could, I'd choose to live without you for the rest of my life...but at least the next 4 yrs will be refreshing for me...even if I have to see you after I come back...for your sake, I hope you change...but then we all know "Tigers cant shed their stripes"...so yea...pipe dreams...

On a brighter note...I love BWKL...I've spent the last few days with him...quality time...getting to know him better...15 days people till I'm off Brunei soil for the longest time in my life...I'm gonna miss you all except the person mentioned above of course..All my friends, my relatives...my brother...my father....my sister....[scg]...and all the people I havent mentioned....I'm gonna miss you tonz...

Anyhooz..I gotta go play more o2jam...I feel so relieved now that I've got all that off my chest...tata