he says she says

The Ultimate fight has just reared its ugly head...

He says " She's a good example of not judging a book by its cover" and I go..."Huh?!"

I totally dont understand..I'm so clueless on whats the next step...confused even.

I feel like I dont have anyone to talk to. Well, he's blogged about it, so I suppose there's no stopping me right?

Well yea...just had a massive fight with the significant other...and I dont know what to do. I mean, what do you say to someone who says something so out of the norm, have a heated debate about it and the next morning, he'd be fine about everything...as if it all didnt happen. It's really weird...

Its really difficult. I dont know..I really wanna forgive him right away...but everything in my head is getting in the way. I dunno..I know I'll forgive him sooner or later...give him another chance. Coz everyone deserves a second chance...but seriously, I dont know how much of this I can handle. As of now...my lips are sealed...I'm not speaking, I'm not giving in. I know you're reading this...everytime I say something...it's always wrong...you probably dont see it...I realise that...but yea...this is me from the outside looking in. You keep saying...listen first...but sometimes, you dont do it...you just get all defensive and point out how I'm the one who's wrong...I dunno...it makes things super tough...It gets hard to be civil...sigh...

I'm just plain miserable..the weather knows my grief...thunder pounding away outside...its like my grandad's fighting so hard up there....I really dont know what made me say that...but yea...I miss my grandad...I miss everything about him...I mean, sure we never really spoke coz he had his first stroke when I was quite young...but there was always a reassuring presence about him. The dreams I had about him speak more to me than anything else. Sigh...I just need someone to turn to...