DeviLz Advocate 505

watch me as I bleed

2008-08-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

I dunno..I'm feeling extremely emo today. I dont know if it's coz I'm tired but yea...emo. I've been scratching my eczema patch like crazy it's started bleeding. Thats when I stop. It's a vicious cycle.

I was dreading today and I'm glad it's over. Puffy was happy today which is good but I think I've managed to drag him down with me. When I look at him now, he's no longer smiling...he's sulking...I dont know. I feel like I've lost all purpose in life. I dont know what to do anymore. Intership meeting is on the 15th of next month and I just heard that not all will be receiving internships...fucked up right ? Why didnt they mention this BEFORE we decided to do enriched degrees. Totally defeats the purpose. Looks like I may be doing more subjects in my third yr...oh well...not so much pressure from change right ?

Get this. One of my friends thought I was a lesbian when I met her last yr. I only found this out recently and it's been messing with my head. I mean, how many people have thought I was a lesbian ? Has that affected the friends I make/dont make ? I dont know. I know, I'm rambling.

Went to one of the final BSSMelb meetings. For me that is. I wont be on the committee anymore. Gonna just jump out while I'm ahead. So our final lunch/afternoon thing that we're planning is on Saturday. AGM people so yea...please come if you want to be on the next committee.

Went to Dr YY's apartment last night for the meeting. She lives in an artsy fartsy place on Franklin that has high ceilings. The apartment itself is quite nice it's only the intercom, the lift and the area outside her apartment that are a bit dark and creepy. I dont know what it is. The gathering was fun. It was then that I think I started getting depressed. I realised there that most of the guys who came over from Brunei have been losing massive amounts of weight...it's depressing coz they're now my weight. Another one of the chicks, M, has lost like 10kgs and right upon hearing that, I figured I'd start starving myself and joining all them malay peepz in their fasting. I'm just too fat. Not happy with me.

Also found out recently that Donkee may be leaving really soon, provided he gets his scholarship. If...or should I say WHEN he gets it, he'll be leaving around the 22nd of next month. Really soon right ? Shit. I'm gonna be alone when I go home for my Summer break. Who's gonna be my look out/ my partner in crime ? Crap. But still, I hope he gets his scholarship. I mean, it'll only be 4 years before I see him again. I could visit him and vice versa during holidays anyways.

So stupid. Why cant UK and Aus holidays coincide? stupid. Yea...anyhooz..I think I've done enough ranting for now. I think I'll just force myself to go to bed or something...*sigh*

the girl without a smile

2008-08-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

I dont know. I just havent felt the need to write lately. I feel empty to say the least. Not so much anymore coz I'm writing again. But before this. If I dont write it's coz I dont feel the need to or rather I feel it pointless to be putting 'nothingness' into words.

It seems like everyone around me has purpose, ie they have something to do. Deadlines to meet and stuff. I've practically slept and fought my weekend away. Alls well in paradise now but it feels like such a wasted weekend. I've still got my 39 line autobiography to do and my readings as well but still, I cant get myself to do all that. I just feel like cooking, eating and playing wow..haha..I know..weird right ?
Turning into a pig. LoLz.

Anyhooz, what've I been up to lately?

Radio Television Brunei (RTB) was here recently shooting the average life of an overseas student so I've been helping out with that. Been showing them around the Melbourne Uni campus, showing them my tt skills, and also acting in the pre-Hari Raya shoot. It was quite a lot of fun =) but still I dont think I'll look very good on tv. I put on so much weight..haha..dad's gonna have something to say about that for sure.

I got my E71 changed yesterday coz it started heating up big time when I was watching Tropic Thunder at Melb Central with Puffy. I didnt like it. Not wholly coz of the movie but because I was sitting next to this asian chick ( I dont really know where she was from) that kept telling her Indian bf about her home country. which sounded familar, throughout the movie. She had her feet up on the chair without her shoes on, she kept talking REALLY loudly during the movie and to top it all off...she was eating SOTONG!!! At that point I actually wished I had smelly feet that would overpower the stench. My gosh..she may as well have been eating Durian..

Well, I started playing the guitar again and of all songs I decide to learn, I chose Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours" haha..it's soooo tough...so Puffy is taking a whack at it first. Anyways, back to WoW-ing

This is Karma baybeee....

2008-08-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

It's been a weird couple of days. A lot has happened. I think Karma has gone a full cycle with me. Yesterday AS and I were on our way to IKEA Richmond. We were sitting on the 109 tram and were almost at our destination. We had two Greek ladies sitting in front of us.

AS and I were both listening to our Ipods coz it's the only way we can sit on long tram rides without getting sick. I took my earphones out to tell him something when all of a sudden the tram lurched forward in an attempt to stop. I had to try really hard to stop from flying forward into the old ladies. AS tried to stop himself and me in the process by squishing me against the side of the tram interior.

We didnt know what all the commotion was about. When we looked out the left windows we saw that the tram stopped coz it got hit by a car that ran a light. A bit shook up but still alright we got out of the tram to wait for another one. The driver was alright but a bit traumatized by the incident as well. I know it's protocol but still the tram driver was nice enough to check up on all of us to see if we were ok.

We got on another tram coz it didnt seem that the accident affected us much. I was thinking this whole time "This is Karma". On the other tram, we were standing coz all the seats were taken and I got this phone call from a withheld number. I thought it was my dad but found out it wasnt when I answered the call.

"Hi, is this Stephanie ? I'm a Yarra tram inspector and I'm calling because ST didnt validate her ticket. She claims to be your housemate so I'm just calling to check if the address she provided is correct. Can you please tell me your house address?"

Haha. That was quite odd coz when he said Yarra tram inspector, I was thinking "how did he get my number ?" and "that was quick". I thought he was calling about the accident we just had. Haha..

It's funny how karma works. I figured, I've had so much shit luck lately, it's time for some good karma, no ?

there are times

2008-06-11T11:18:00.002+08:00

There are times where everything is all rainbows and butterflies. Where you feel like nothing can go wrong..when even bad things dont seem so bad and they can be fixed. There are times where every little flaw seems so cute and you wanna see more of everything.

Then there are times where you feel like...where the fuck did all the rainbows and butterflies go? You see the person for who he/she really is. You see the temper tantrums, the anger spells..and everything becomes clear.

You constantly wonder why is this person acting this way, etc etc.

Yes I'm truly unhappy at the moment and I dont know why.

Got a paper on friday..arghh...lets just get it over and done with..then maybe later everything will all be rainbows and butterflies again.

just for you Rach

2008-06-04T21:23:00.002+08:00

Haha...I know..you guys are sick of hearing how I'm sorry bout not posting in a while...haha...I'm sorry...I cant help it...ALTHOUGH I have been procrastinating so badly today...hey!! at least I'm like 600 words into my essay..better than nothing right ?

What have I done today?
-research for pop culture essay
- finished the first disc of sex and the city season 1...and I dont have the rest of season one so I'm annoyed...I have the first cd of season 2 though..should I watch it ?
-almost hit level 30 in WoW..yes I know SLOW!!!! what to do ? I've been procrastinating in wow as well..you cant win em all right ?
- did some work..although VERY VERY minimal...
- watched Harry Potter 5..haha..I think Luna Lovegood is really pretty albeit quite creepy...yes I used albeit..haha...essay talk right there, yo!!

I think I'll be wasting time until arif comes over..he's been at his uni editing his work for his radio project..so yea, he and shen have been hanging out at Bundoora...and I've been cooped up at home...sitting in the same spot for 90% of my waking hours..which would make 12 hours in half an hour...needless to say I wont be catching any shut eye till this essay is done...then tomorrow I need to get started on my Net Comm essay and get my website for the Net Comm project perfected...hope all goes well man!!! Cant fuck this up...need the grades..

The only reason I decided to post today is coz of Rach..she just started up her new blog so I updated my links and decided to post for the heck of it...

oh yea, one more thing before I go...

Happy 22nd Birthday Yen Ying, Happy 1st Birthday Sophie (although you obviously cant read this no matter how much of a 'bookworm' you are) and Happy 2nd year anniversary che!!

Schizophrenic or bi polar ?

2008-05-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

I've been doing research for my feature that's due monday..yup..gonna be skipping class again on monday morning..damn.. Need to call up 1800-SANE to tie the bow on my feature.

I've finally figured out why that $%#^& doesnt like me. I'm nothing like her...we dont dress the same, we dont like the same things, we just dont have a common thread to work on apart from the fact that she lives in the same apartment as my bf..oh well..what to do ? I cant fight with superficiality...she's really full of it. I think it's also the fact that she needs to control everything. There cant be more than one alphas in anyone place at anyone time. So, I guess I'm more of a threat now.

LoL...thats my only explanation of why she doesnt like me around. Either that or La Trobe Uni vs Melb Uni. I know it seems all too conceited but I cant think of anything else and so I just jump to whatever conclusion I can come up with.

*sigh* glad I dont need to see her on a daily basis

you just can't possibly know who your friends are anymore...

2008-05-16T19:30:00.003+08:00

I know...I'm going into 'emo' mode at the moment and arif probably wouldnt like the fact that I used that term to describe the phase that I'm going through..but hey, it's reality isn't it ?

I just had the world's biggest reality check. It's like Brunei all over again...MAN!!! If I wanted to go through all this BS, I should've just stayed in Brunei...why waste all this money...why bother crossing borders just to experience the same thing...AGAIN...bloody hell man...

After this year, I think my life is gonna slide downhill...I wont have the people I normally have to keep me in check. Sure I have arif...I hope that's enough though. I have a way of letting things spiral badly out of control sometimes. :(

By this time next year, Rach will probably be elsewhere...someplace that's not melbourne. Ying would be done with her honours year and far away from me. :( Who's gonna have my back ?

I've come to a realisation that you cant necessarily trust people around you to be honest friends. I mean, who in the world hosts a dinner, invites your boyfriend and personally disinvites you ? Who does that nowadays ? How low would you go to show how much you DONT appreciate someone ?

I have done NOTHING...abso-fucking-lutely NOTHING to you...why do you have to treat me this way? I have made a decision to treat you like you dont exist. No more hellos...no more acknowledgements...you want a war...this is it...I hope you like what you've brought upon yourself. I hope you fail all your units...I mean, you ONLY study in Latrobe...if you cant do well there...where can you do well right ? Bitch...

I feel you drawing the people I used to be quite good friends with away from me. I know there's nothing I can do but watch it happen...sucks to be me right ? My dad used to say 'no man's an island'...FUCK THAT...I'm my own island...if there's no one out there that I can trust...there's just me...on my island....

you just can't possibly know who your friends are anymore...

2008-05-16T19:30:00.000+08:00

it's all inversely proportional...

2008-05-07T16:25:00.002+08:00

My social life is skyrocketing, my uni work is going six feet under...need to create balance once more...first it was my hard news story that came back with 'fabrication issues', now it's my politics essay which came back with bad referencing comments..i'm doooomed...so yea I've picked up speed and decided to do my assignments ahead of time and properly.

Today has really not been a good day. Skill wise, in tt I was doing well, but near the end as I was practising my serves, I whacked the table and a chunk of my blade fell off...SHIT!!! At least it still works I guess...but shit!!! Why does this happen to me all at one go? Not enough bad luck is it ?

Went to the library right after tt and borrowed like...4 books...2 are on overnight loan, and 2 are on 2 hour loan...so I need to go back by 8...stupiakz...bloody uni rules...

Anyhooz, better get to it before I run out of time and have to borrow the same book again...noobz...

I'm a shorty...it's my birthday =P

2008-05-05T00:03:00.004+08:00

Now that I'm 21, I'm able to
- go to Vegas and gamble
- do anything in the world coz I'm officially globally legal
....I know there are lots more and this is pathetic coz I cant think of anymore at the moment..haha..so stupid.

I'm meant to be asleep or trying to get to sleep at the very least...but I cant...too excited..for what ? I dont know...boo..

I've started playing World of Warcraft (WoW) a couple of days ago and it's niiiiice...so bye bye Maple Story and HELLO WoW!!! Haha..Sean and everyone else are like "dont start it, we'll never see you again!!" haha..but I think I have the will power to stop playing and go out whenever I wanna so yea..it's all good...

Anyhooz, that was it for my short rant..I know, my posts are getting shorter and shorter but I really cant help it...losing the will to blog lately...mostly when I get excited, I automatically go to facebook...post pictures, facebook...see what friends are doing/saying, facebook...everything, facebook!! Haha

Ok..I think I should force myself to sleep...got class at 10am and I'm NOT wagging...not tomorrow...it's my day...and I'm gonna live it up!~!

I'm a shorty...it's my birthday =P

2008-05-05T00:03:00.001+08:00

First Birthday Present..

2008-05-01T16:27:00.003+08:00

...not counting the ang pow of course...I was so happy that I felt the need to make a vlog..haha...there will be more to come considering I can now do it on my desktop =)

I just got home from lunch and birthday shopping with Marvin, Rach and Rif...it was so much fun. My sorethroat is back though..and that sucks...balls..haha...anyhooz..I have Rif around to take care of me and make me feel better...I feel so loved...*sigh*

Anyhooz..here's the vid...this post wasnt meant to be this long to begin
with...haha

dont get sick!!

2008-04-28T16:14:00.002+08:00

I dont have anymore assignments to do for a while so YES!! I'm freeeeeee!! Birthday is round the corner and I feel the flu coming on...dammit...shoo shoo...I cant get sick..I've got so much planned!!! DAMMIT

The temperature outside's dropped by so much..is it Winter already?

Arif is sick..so he's gone home so he doesnt infect me more...it's so quiet around here..syl's not home so yea...I'm just sitting here, eating shapes..haha

gotta shower soon

One month has come and gone...

2008-04-23T08:53:00.002+08:00

...and we didnt even see it pass..thats how much we've been having fun!

We went to watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall last night at Hoyts. SO much sex in the show...but it was funny lah. I think it's more a guy's type of movie...I enjoyed it but not overly.

I finally managed to get my desktop alarm to work! YAY!!! Haha...Not gonna see rif at all today..he has to do sound editing...boo...I suppose I should get started on my soft news story as well..haha...been 'relaxing' since I finished doing my last assignment on Friday. Time to get started again.

I know this isn't really much of a blog entry but hey, I'm trying yea ?

Anyhooz...i gotta go...time to take a shower!!

Dell Inspiron 530s

2008-04-18T21:28:00.002+08:00

I love it I love it I love it!!!

My new desktop is finally here and it's AWESOME!!! The screen is so huge..rif and I were sakai for quite a while at the hugeness of the screen. For goodness sakes..I even turned down going to Max B's just to stay home and play on my computer. Ok..that's a lie. I actually thought rach was gonna call me for dinner but she forgot about me...boo...so I still havent had dinner and it's 11.30pm already..

Luckily, I've got an awesome boyfriend who's always thinking of me!! He went shopping at Coles and bought me dinner..haha..awesomeness..yes I know it's lame, but I started playing MS again..haha..this time..no more mage..I'm a warrior now! TAKE THAT!!!

I managed to finish all my assignments in time...although if we're talking quality-wise, I'm not so sure how well I did...boo~~~anyhooz...rif's back from the city...gotta go..laterz

cool accident..!!

2008-04-16T15:38:00.002+08:00

I was on my way to tt just now and I saw the coolest thing!! Ok..so maybe it's a bit sadistic of me to say this is cool but hey, it was.

There was this parade of fire trucks...and well they were beeping and waving and everything. The first one was ahead of the whole entourage so everything was fine. Then the traffic lights turned red and the driver of the second truck kept going. The cars perpendicular got the green light so the woman in the station wagon just went. She couldnt stop in time so she crashed into the fire truck. It all happened about a metre and a half away from me.

It's funny coz there were police escorts and usually escorts are meant to be in front and at the side of the parade..but this police car was just lagging behind. I dont know if the parade had the right to run the red light or if it had to stop like everyone else. Its a bit scary once you think about it. The driver had a really stunned look on his face...the pillion rider was just laughing. I dont know if he was drunk. But they were carrying about 5 to 6 passengers at the back and a couple of them were kids..

So yea...I just got back from tt and well, I know I shouldnt have even gone in the first place. I still haven't finished my three essays. I've gotten most of the research for the politics one done already. Just have to write it up by the end of tonight. Then I have to quickly move on to the other two essays. Man...really slack. I'm just cooling off now..waiting to take a shower and have dinner...then eventually get some work done. Sleep, no sleep....no difference. LoLz...

me and all my evilness

2008-04-14T16:16:00.002+08:00

My goodness I'm really cutting it close this time round. I have 3 more essays to do for thursday and friday and get this...I've only started doing research for 1 yes ONE of them.

I managed to get my hard news article done in time for deadline. phew...really close call. I really should take a shower now but I feel like blogging. Gonna shower and head out for dinner again...coz Jeff is leaving tomorrow...and I like hanging out with rachael...but for some strange reason, she keeps going to Max B's without me...hmmph..;)

I just got back from tabletennis actually..there was this new guy, Matt. He's really good but he plays in a funny manner..and I kept losing. I won Sheng...that should put him in his place for a while. He's really so full of crap! I swear. I felt like throwing my bat at him so many times today. Luckily I have self control!! LoLz..

I told wei that I got my tatt just now. Haha...I'm glad she can keep a secret. It seems that Steve, Wei and the munchkin will be coming in either August or September. Yay!! But that means I'll need to get any work done before they get here...eepz....need to look for accomodation for them too..I cant wait to see sophie again..take more pics so I can make my picture wall grow...I've already got almost half the middle part of my bedroom wall covered...=)

Anyhooz, it's shower time. Laterz

I got a tatt!!!

2008-04-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

Yup that I did...it's a partial tribal with a red Nautical star in the middle. Here, take a look and lemme know what you guys think =)

I got it done a couple of days ago. Went to the Vic Market Tattoo Parlour with Rif and Jeff..Rach came a bit later after her class ended...this tatt set me back about AUD 150..not too bad I suppose. I mean, I like it and that's all that matters. I'm a bit worried about letting family know though, ALTHOUGH, it's inevitable. Better later than sooner I say. Shen may be getting his done tomorrow afternoon and Jef is getting the rest of his sleeve done on Sunday.

I would put up more pictures but I cbf to transfer them over from my phone. My laptop died by the way. So I'm just waiting for the green light from my dad to get my new desktop. I figured I've had enough of laptops. So yea, gotta make room in my humble little dwelling for a 22" monitor. Yup, dad's being cheap again. He's told me to only get what's necessary and not necessarily everything in the highest specs. I tried...but the lowest I could go is AUD 1199...so yea...I suppose it is quite cheap already.

I really should be doing more research on my Pop Culture essay but I think I'm getting dozy...I've had half a bottle of red bull already and I'm feeling a bit tired. Doing my work on the bed suddenly doesnt feel like such a good idea. All my assignments are due in less than a weeks time...I'm in so much trouble!!! I've only gotten partially past the research of 2 of my assignments so far. I have to do my interviews for my Writing Journalism piece and now I've got to get all the facts down for my Pop culture assignment. I think I'm gonna pass out very soon though. Boo...well, this is what happens when you leave things to the last minute!!! LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES (which ironically, I myself never learn from...LOLZ)

Yea anyhooz, I'm either gonna go to bed now or get more done. Oh joy...

Congrats Ying!!

2008-04-09T13:28:00.002+08:00

Yen Ying's graduation ceremony is tonight. Gonna go see her before that though. Take pictures. Haha. I havent taken proper pictures at uni yet so I suppose this is my chance yea?

I've been so good today. I went to my politics tute this morning and stayed for the WHOLE of the most boring lecture ever which dragged on for an additional half an hour. Ridiculous...

I may be going to Rialto towers tonight with Rach and Jeff...hopefully Rif will be able to join us. He doesnt know about my plans for tonight. He's still stuck in class so I dont wanna kacau.

anyhooz..this was just meant to be a short blurb coz Im bored..haha...I really should get some work done no? haha..so slack...ridiculous...

Mellow Metal 55

2008-04-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

Yea I created a new blog at my Net Comm tute just now. Well, I had to do something right ? I got bored just waiting for all them inexperienced people to catch up. I didnt know what to call it so I sorta reflected on my current status. Mellow Metal only seemed appropriate.

This will still be my primary blog though. I will only use that one as a site for random videos and rants that I would deem proper enough for public eyes...it's cool...coz at the moment, I have a dragonforce and a couple of jeff dunham clips...just take a look. It's quite good. Although, there isnt much that can be said for the layout. It's just black...which is ok I guess to a certain extent.

Anyhooz, I'm glad the net comm debate is over. We really kicked ass man!! The proposition were left speechless...most of their debate was not relevant to the topic at hand. They flew off on a tangent. I felt a bit bad bagging their argument but it was necessary I suppose.

I think I really should hop in the shower. It's midnight already and I still havent showered from after tabletennis. It's all rif's fault haha...oh yea...and stupid thing...I think I really injured my left knee...AGAIN...I cant bend on that knee...dont know what the hell I did to it though..it hurts like the beeeeeches....haha

Gonna go shower...laterz

Blogging does not challenge the authority of mainstream media

2008-04-07T06:58:00.002+08:00

I know..ironic right ? I'm meant to be writing my speech for the debate topic above..but I just keep procrastinating...I know I wont get to eat later on at lunch time so I'm gonna eat my lunch now..or at least as soon as it's done baking. I'm so tired...I just cant focus. I'm screwed...

SILENCE!! I KILL YOU!!! haha...I've been watching Jeff Dunham as you can prolly tell. He's so funny with Achmed the terrorist..haha...anyhooz, my bro's gone a blogging hiatus and I've been on again off again coz of my new relationship. I havent given rif the password or even this blog address..it's coz I learnt from my past relationships that I just have to keep somethings to myself. I just need to have the feeling that I have something that's totally mine and mine alone. I know it seems self centred..but hey, thats me right ?

Less than a month to go before I hit the fan...haha..no lah...before I reach 21...I wonder what it's like on the other side. Once I cross that line, do I have to act more responsible? Must I change who I've grown to be ? Must I be different ? The thing is, I dont know. I'm just stuck. I love who I am. I love who I'm with. Everything just seems to fall into place for now. Anyhooz...I just felt like doing a bit of a rant coz I havent really done so in a whille. So yea, gotta quit nodding off and get this bloody speech done. Laterz

fingers are getting hard and numb

2008-04-02T08:11:00.002+08:00

It's because of all the guitar playing...soon I'll have really horrible rough fingers..lol..I'm annoyed..oh well..

I'm gonna have a really slack day today...as if I havent been skipping enough lectures, I cant be bothered to go to my politics tute. Sigh...I know...but hey look..there is a bright side...I'm gonna get started on my assignments and get my debate speech done by the end of today. I dont have class tomorrow and friday coz of Anzac day. AWESOME!!!! I just dont feel like doing anything. I'm feeling as demotivated as I was yesterday. Only, yesterday, I had Max B's....twice..haha...Rif really does <3 me...he only doesnt really express it in words..haha...

I know I've been talking about getting sick..but I think it's becoming reality. My throat's starting to hurt and my bones are starting to hurt...I dunno what it is. So yea, thats also part of the reason why I'm staying in today. Also, the agent is coming over for an inspection. I know...they've got their own key so I dont necessarily need to be here. I may/may not go for tabletennis...prolly will though. I dont know how much staying home I can do.

Last night was awesome, I played a poker tournament online and I came in 609th place out of 12000 players....my highest position yet!! the goal is to hit 99 and below though so yea...still got some progress to make. Anyhooz, I'm gonna make myself more presentable then get some work done...

Oh yea...I can play Canon in D, Tentang Kita and this Ronan Keating Song now...but all not very properly. Trying to master Tentang Kita first...haha...hey...it's only been about 2 weeks since I started learning...gimme some credit..haha

Green Tea Frapp-oholic

2008-03-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

I love starbucks...I've said that before right ? Well, I REALLY DO LOVE STARBUCKS!!! haha...I made a tuna pasta bake just now...ok..so I didnt really make it...I just tossed stuff together and chucked it in the oven...does that count? It turned out quite good...Rif, Syl and I managed to get 3/4 of it down. I suppose the rest would just be for some random meal tomorrow.

I'm now at Rach's place...she got back from class late and needed someone to accompany her for dinner so I went anyways...she lives for Nandos just like how I live for Starbucks...so yea...if anyone needs ideas on what to get me for my birthday....hint hint...STARBUCKS GIFT CARD...just put money in the card first...I'd be really happy!!

I really should be doing my readings for tomorrow...I'm staying over at rach's coz I just cant be bothered to go home. And it's really COLD outside...so yea..really cant be stuffed to go...ok...gonna do readings now...MUST READ...POPULAR CULTURE.......or play Nintendo DS...NOOO!!! POP CULTURE!!! Yup, the endless conflicts that go on in my head look really weird on paper....

Oh yea...I decided not to go to Sale. Rather spend that amount of money at IKEA buying new stuff for my bedroom...lalala...ok...gonna go now...

The Other Boleyn Girl

2008-03-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

I just got back from watching the movie with Rif..it was alright I guess...a bit long for my likings but it was good for an olden day English film. A lot of treachery, beheadings, near incest, etc...some people would say that it is boring...some would say otherwise.

I know I havent been blogging lately, been really involved in my new relationship. =D I got a new watch yesterday!! Finally!! Rif paid for half of it. I <3 him. He's really sweet...sweeter than most non-metalheads.

I find it really weird that in the begining of the movie just now, I decided that I wanted to get a tribal sun in the middle of my lower back. I know it sounds very cliche but what can I say. It's a classic. I need to get something that I'll be able to live with for the rest of my life. I think I shouldn't get it on my ankle like I wanted to initially just in case it doesnt get as accepted as I'd like it to. Considering how my family outside my extended family is.

Somehow, I dont feel like I'm really accepted in my bf's social circle. I know it's a bit late, considering his place is almost my second home...I'm trying to make an effort...really...I am..but I feel an invisible barrier. I'd really like to tell him about it...but it seems he's really protective of what's his. I suppose it'll only take time.

Easter break is almost over. Gee, time really has flown. We've started the sin bin concept and well, let's put it this way. It's barely been 2 days and there's already almost 20 bucks in it. Haha..thats how bad we are at controlling vulgarities. It's a good idea..the whole sin bin thing..but I have a feeling we'll be able to pay for our holidays soon with the money accumulated. Here's to hoping. I cant wait for the beginning of the month to come. I'm haemorraging money...as is my sayang. Haha...I dont want to suffer financial burdens dammit!!! ( there goes another 50c) haha...my bad...

Anyhooz, I think I should stop being so antisocial and get out there and blend. Laterz

no longer single

2008-03-23T09:57:00.002+08:00

Happy hyper tree hugger is now dating a hair flipping head banger!! haha...sounds so odd..yea we were made official last night...I think acceptance is coming around.

Happy Easter everyone! Sad thing about Easter is that NOTHING is open today...except China Town and Crown. What're we gonna do ? I know we're going starbucks for sure...I'm like a Bonafide Green Tea Frappucino addict...among others. I really really feel like going shopping today dammit.

I'm supposed to be getting ready to meet Rif downstairs in like....now...but I'm not even ready...haha..so slack!! munky...I really hope ST is out at work. I stole her shoes last night and I realised that we took heaps of pictures last night and like yea...photographic evidence. The story is...they're rach's..haha...stupid...I need to go shopping.

The National Day event went really well yesterday. It still feels really funny wearing a Baju Kurung and walking down Swanston Street. Haha..keep getting the funny looks! But yea, my baju yesterday was quite pretty I thought, so it was alright. I met Pg Ayub already and he was pretty nice and accomodating. Apparently all I need to do is send him an email regarding the biennial ticket and everything that follows will come into place. Either that or I can get my ticket first and later they'll reimburse me. Both sound alright to me.

People were already assuming that Rif and I were together at the event yesterday. It was weird coz I didnt event realise till he told me how people were treating him differently. Kim just kept poking him (??) and the girls were giving him the cheeky grin in the "is-something-going-on" sorta way...so yea...

Speaking of a different kim...MY COUSIN LIVES A FLOOR ABOVE ME IN THE SAME APARTMENT BUILDING!!! Haha...who would've thought. I was waiting for the lift yesterday...and when it opened..she was there..she was like..."am I in the right building?" that was a classic moment..haha..

Anyhooz..gotta get ready...Starbucks!!! Yummeh!!!!

bagi hatimu yang damai

2008-03-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

I had an awesome time...I spent quite a lot of time with AS today...awesome...went for the final rehearsal this afternoon and it was so so I suppose. I finally had my Green Tea frap...delicious...mmmm-mmmmm...haha...

Went for dinner at Nelayan where we ran into Dee and company. It was so good seeing her again. After dinner we werent quite sure what we wanted to do - it was either watch a movie or go to Crown. I figured I wasnt in the mood to gamble so we watched Step Up 2 instead. It was good...happy to say that I was impressed. We were really early for the movie so the two of us ended up playing Aussie pool at BarCode. I dont like Aussie pool...AS kept trash talking saying how he'd win me eyes closed...well, unfortunately for him, I won 2-0...haha...skill!! Haha..

I dont know what's happening at the moment...I think I'm falling...which is unusual considering AS is well...AS...not the guy I'd normally go for...is there something wrong with me ? Or is it alright to go for different ? The thing is, I think he feels a spark as well..but he's also pretty unsure of how to react to it. So yea, I suppose I'll just leave things as they are and let him make a move...if he chooses to do so. I'm chatting with him at the moment anyways...and i'll see him in less than 12 hrs so yea...only time will tell right ?

Getting cold in Melb...going to bed...

I TOLD YOU GREEN MAN!!!

2008-03-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

Haha..inside joke. I just got back from Schepisi's little get together at his place in Illawara...bloody hell...took Frankie and I so long to get there...haha..luckily josh offered to send us home otherwise it would've been an expensive cab ride. There were 6 of us in the cab. so yea....It was alright I guess..the party could've gone worse. I mean, there were lots of people there and I dont think I was really being very social. We ended up playing Nintendo 64 (old school right ?) lolz. It was fun eventhough I kept losing.

We watched their video of how Schepisi, Paulie, Josh and Gumley got drunk and started driving around from 2.30 till about 5 in their quest to find an open pancake place, meanwhile, stopping by many Touch 'ums places to get them to join their quest...it was funny..haha..although, I didnt quite get it coz their Aussie was a bit deep.

Anyhooz..I'm tired...a lot of things done today in selling a ticket for saturday's bash, going for touch, touch BBQ, meeting new people, scoring an AWESOME try, going to Schepisi's party...so yea..so that I dont get sick, I think I should head to bed...nightz...

lookie what I got

2008-03-19T22:22:00.003+08:00

I got back from Crown about an hour ago...tonight has been good. I won about 170 at the pokie machines...I'll try not to make playing the pokies a habit though...coz things can go quite wrong..I bought a $50 dollar poker prepaid card so I'm ready to go...at least, when I have a familiar face to play with...lolz...I sorta regret not playing just now but hey, at least I came out of the place a winner right ?

Oh yea, I no longer have a red crown card. I've been upgraded apparently...so yea, now I have a VIP slots crown card...it's quite pretty...really shiny...so I was quite sakai just now..haha...it's safe to say I had fun.

Was at crown with Marvin, Arif and Angie. We had dinner there at George's grill then did our rounds...Arif and I were at the pokies while marvin and angie had something to drink. I was about to play blackjack, but then, there was a change of dealer...and well, things didnt look so good for the people playing..I guess I was playing quite smart today. Good me!

I played tt as well just now. There were some first year dudes there...ex Melb High students...there was one in particular that was REALLY good...apparently he played for the state or something. I dunno..he introduced himself to me but I kinda forgot his name. memory of a fish. Well, yea, you guys know how I always lose my first match ? Well, I played him first without any warming up..was pretty out of breath too coz I ran all the way to the sports complex. Yea, so I kinda lost to this guy. But I won everyone else with Daniel as an exception. Mack came today. He was pretty good considering he didnt touch a bat for 2 years...but yea, I still won him. (this is me trying not to be too full of myself as well as trying not to be modest as Sean would say)

All in all, today was a good day. I met this guy at the Pop culture lecture. Singaporean guy by the name of Caleb. He lives in the apartment block right behind mine!! Awesome!!! We got to know each other coz we were sitting next to each other in the lecture...and the bloody lecturer was STILL really monotonous...it was impossible to pay attention man!! urgh...so yea...we were like making funny faces at one another...it was good fun..haha

One last thing...Kenny is in Melb!!! He brought me a bolster from Sg...it's not brand new but still, hasnt been used...all I have to do is sun it for a bit then I can use it...=) haha...yay finally a bolster!!

I think I should head to bed...night

so I've been told

2008-03-17T20:58:00.004+08:00

...that I've gotten a bit guy crazy..haha..I know...I cant help it...dating someone who wasnt exactly what one would consider a proper guy does this to you. I know it's been 8 months already but who's counting right ? I love being surrounded by gorgeous people. I mean, who doesnt ?

If I ever mention that some dude is hot...or even if I obsess about a person for more than a day, dont think too much of it. It could prolly be a mild infatuation. I dont know what's real anymore. So yea...que sera sera...what ever will be will be...haha...so yea...

what've I been up to lately? Apart from not being a vocal exhibitionist, I'm learning how to play the guitar...from acoustic to electric...so far, I'm liking it. Arif is teaching me...even though he himself is self taught I think I'm catching on pretty quick. I can already play canon in D on the guitar as well as part of greensleeves..haha

I'm really supposed to be doing my readings at this point but I just cant bring myself to do em...and I have a tute at 11am...boo~~~ stupid timetable...I've got a 4 hour break then a 'boring-as' lecture...:(

The weather today was crazy...It hit 40 and I swear I got a bit more sunburnt walking from Queensberry street to the sports centre. I met a few more people today in lectures and tutes...it was quite funny coz at my Net Comm tute, this guy, Lu, sat next to me...and Nate (the tutor) was like, "turn your screens sideways so I can see everyone and make sure no one is doing something they're not supposed to"...so we all did it...Lu just rolled his chair closer to mine and started playing with Paint while the girls were debating up front...he drew this...

After the first girl of the prop team finished speaking, Nate got up and came to our bench and turned Lu's screen around a further 90 degrees...and said " I can hear you clicking from up front you know!!" haha...he went sooooo red...it was quite cute..haha

Anyhooz...I managed to delete some important files from my ds memory card, panic and put them all back again...arent I clever? haha...

I went for tabletennis just now..(arent I dedicated?) and well, let's just say, the heat and Shen got to me quite a bit...the heat just makes me get angry quicker...and Shen didnt help things much...he just kept insulting my tt strokes and serves...so I tried my best not to yell at him or do anything stupid by listening to my iphone..I'm sure at that point people found me weird and childish...but you cant possibly imagine how much will power it took to not shout at him....grrrr..

I really gotta go do some work now..so Laterz....

oh what a bore...

2008-03-16T10:00:00.002+08:00

Went to watch 10,000 BC last night...it was aaaaaaaaalright I guess...nothing to oooh and aaah about...went with Richard and his housemate Rocky. After the show, we went to Mekong for dinner...the fishball noodle soup was goood...although it felt like there was a bit too much msg in it...oh well..thats what you get when you eat out...Kim came along for dinner. He totally forgot that I wanted to go to crown after and he refused to take his passport with him. I think I need to find a new boredom buddy. I think I've seen a bit too much of him. Cant really stand him as much anymore. He's getting very whingy and whiney on me. Not something you'd like to see in a guy...much less a friend...

So yea, I ended up going home and chatting with random people. oh well...no biggy. I got another meeting with the BSSMelb group in about an hours time. Oh yea, when I went yesterday, no one told me that I had to perform as well..I mean, I didnt know I had to sing...shiiit....luckily it's only one line of a malay song. The song's quite nice I suppose. I spent so much money yesterday...lolz...and I ate so much...haha really not a good combination.

I really need to get some work done...but when? I'll probably do some reading tonight. Just cant be bothered to do anything at the moment. Oh yea...more spending money later...I have to go grocery shopping after church...boo~~ oh well...cant do anything bout it...necessities..

Anyhooz...I think I myself am getting a bit whingey as well..so I better stop here. Laterz

Uni of Melb is awesome..

2008-03-14T16:07:00.002+08:00

I really love my uni and I'm glad I got in..it's so much fun. Played tt today in 40 degree heat...felt quite sluggish at first but then it all got better...you tend to sorta disregard the heat once you get going...I sparred a bit with Yu Shan and played matches against Danial, Richard and this new German dude, Nico...

Nico was really good...he plays with long pimples and has the whole chopping thing going on. He was the only one I really lost to today...I lost like what...6-11...I was trying to get used to the pimples the whole time..maybe I'll get him next time...hope he comes again...=)

Went to Kim's friend's place on the 32nd floor of the verve just now..Pat and Sharlene's place...we went over to get his ipod but we ended up staying for a while. They had 2 dogs there...quite cute...one pomeranian (Coco) and one jack russell terrier (Mikey)...I liked the pomeranian better though...The JRT was Kim's dog...

Anyhooz...this was only meant to be a short post...gonna take a nice cold shower...

Oh yea...I got my hairwax from Joyce already!!! haha...now all I need to do is buy more hairspray...maybe when I go get my hair cut next time..

Touch was AWESOME!!!

2008-03-13T16:30:00.002+08:00

I just got back...didnt go to the Clyde with the rest of the team today coz most of the Asians didnt go...it's alright...maybe next week or something...I met so many new people today...Lyra, Yen, Josh, another Josh, Nuddin and saw a lot of old faces...it was so much fun!! There are so many hot dudes this time round...so I really dont regret going..haha...Ok...for those reading my blog, you must really be fed up about hearing me babble about hot dudes...but I dont care...I just like enjoying the scenes of my surroundings..haha...

At touch, in the span of an hour and a half ( coz I got there late....lecture just before) I managed to get quite sunburned, kneed three times by Nuddin (in the ass, in the knee and in the stomach...ooh and I got tackled flat too...), landed on by some Oz Chick whose name I've forgotten...and I managed to take a dive but to an unsuccessful try...pretty eventful I say...all fun stuff!! By the way, Nuddin is quite hot...and so are 2 of the Joshes...haha..they're all asian...haha...all good stuff...They're taking a trip down to Sale to play touch I think in April...it's 50 bucks if I wanna play in one team...should be quite good..I think I should join the team...would give me a chance to get to know people better...but I'll only go if I see familiar faces...I know..there's always that condition...

Oh yea, I spent the night at Roy's place last night....Roy and I ended up sleeping at 3...Derek slept at 5....Dont worry readers, Roy gave me his room and he slept outside...haha..he wanted the aircon..but I was cold enough anyways...We went to The Oxford Scholar ( a lil pub near the verve) and had a pint while playing black jack...I was up about 60 bucks...but then at the end of playing, I was down 30...D and I went to play pool before that...the deal was if I won, he'd pay and we'd go to crown...but I lost...so I had to pay...:( very close though...I lost 2-3 and had one ball left...oh well..shows that I dont REALLY suck...and I managed to get to know him heaps better...=) we had dinner as well...so it was all good..

Anyhooz...I feel like my nose is gonna start bleeding soon..and I'm really in need of a shower..haha...Safe to say...I ran off most of the alchy I had yesterday!!

OOOOOH YEA!!! I saw Richard just now...=D He's BACK!!! I thought he said last year would be his final year...so you can imagine the look on my face when I saw him...well, he saw me first I guess..haha...cool stuff!!

if vanity were a crime...we'd be arrested..

2008-03-12T15:50:00.004+08:00

I'm quite tired but still happy...I just did the laundry and took a shower...just about to go out to dinner with D...I think he's hot..haha...but shhhh...haha..I only met him last night at RP's place...we went to play pool. It was heaps of fun! The dude is looking for a place to stay and well, while doing so, RP let him stay at his apartment..my cousin's so nice...haha...

It was so stupid this morning...I woke up at about 9 and my tute's at 12...so yea, I figured I had heaps of time to get ready. I took a super long shower and when I went to the tv area and looked at the clock, it was already 11.30...I was like SHIT...DAYLIGHT SAVINGS HAS ENDED ? So I quickly got my stuff together and ran to uni...bloody hell man...she just sent the time wrong...That was my bit of drama for the day..haha

Had my classses...the tute was fine..but I swear, I thought the Pop Culture lecture would've been much more fun...the lecturer was damn monotonous...and he kept having problems with his slides...idiot...and he got everyone excited near the end saying that he would end the lecture by showing us a video...know what the idiot did? he put up a picture and explained every single obvious thing about the picture...I felt like ramming my head into a wall..I just wanted to leave..

TT was fine today...I played against a chinese guy today and we were about equal in terms of match points...he's a bit creepy though...I think his name is william or something...he's got these really squinty eyes...and he doesnt say anything for most of the time..but when he does, everything comes out...Anyhooz..I think he's still a pretty decent guy anyways...

I gotta go...almost dying of starvation..haha...gotta get ready to head out for dinner with D..laterz

...just coz...

2008-03-11T11:47:00.007+08:00

I just felt like blogging..haha...taking a break from uni work. I had a class just now at 11...it was alright I guess...a lot of Singaporeans, one Malaysian and the rest were the usual China Chinese people and Aussies...ooh...with exception of one South Korean dude. There was this guy sitting next to me by the name of Matt...he was quite cute..but yea...the way he talked was intimidating...very know-it-all-like..haha...and he talked very fast..haha...oh well..I spent a good 2 hours at the library trying to do my Politics readings...safe to say I managed to get through half of it..haha..it was really dense.

So now, I'm at home just waiting for 4.15 to come so I can go to my final lecture of the day then hopefully go for touch rugby...I hope I dont get excluded...my worst fear man!!

Anyhooz, I took some random pictures...so yea..since the files are small, I'll upload them...the perks of using an iPhone to take pics...although the quality isnt that great but hey...still good..
Sophie and the people who love her

The days before flying off

MoombaFestival08

Back at Uni

damn laptop gave me a scare. .

2008-03-10T19:47:00.002+08:00

It wouldnt turn on for 5 hours...there I was fretting that I'd have to get a job to buy a new laptop and even quit going to the gym and start living off bread and water. Crazy. Yup, I really am paranoid..haha...It's a good thing it mysteriously started to work again about 5 minutes ago..I decided to plug it into the wall and take out the battery and voila...it started up..I think my poor Dell experienced a temporary stroke...haha..

Anyhooz, I've been wasting time today. After this post I suppose I should do my readings that I'm behind in and then head to bed or something...

Today's lectures and tute werent too bad. I met up with Sean, Xtina, Mack and Sally for Writing Journalism (WJ). Ok so I didnt intentionally meet up with them, more like I ran into them outside the lecture theatre. It was awesome...we had fun. After the WJ lecture, we went to Brunetti's on Lygon for gelati. It was awesome. I didnt finish mine though so I gave it to Xt...I swear, where does all the food that she eats go ? It's crazy...Net Comm was alright I suppose..the readings were really technical but sitting in the lecture made things so much clearer...oooh and the two lecturers, Michael and Nate were such goofballs...

I had my Net Comm tute an hour after the lecture...Nate's my tutor...he's alright I guess. The first tute was a bit boring but maybe coz we had to do all the housekeeping stuff...I just realised how self centred I really am...I love talking about myself at the icebreaker part of the tutes..haha..it's so silly. I made quite a few new friends today so I'm happy...

Ooh...before I forget, i also met up with Rachel O for lunch today..it was awesome catching up!!!

Moomba means 'up your bum'

2008-03-08T21:24:00.003+08:00

Haha..thats what Sean told me...We had fun just hanging out and talking this afternoon. I had to attend a BSSMelb meeting and he had his birthday bbq to attend so we only met up at around 4. We went grocery shopping and he carried all my stuff for me. So nice..haha. We took quite a few pictures together.

We went to see the Moomba Festival near Federation Square. I felt so sakai...so many rides...there was one that looked like a ball between 2 towers...it looked like something I saw on tv from HK. There was a Ferris Wheel, Ranger and other rides as well. It was awesome, we stayed to watch the fireworks then went home. We went in a big group consisting of me, sean, syl, apple, tracy, her housemate, derrick, aaron and another couple of girls. It was really a lot of fun watching all those lights and the experiencing the carnival-like atmosphere.

Anyhooz, my pokemon pearl has finished downloading...I'm gonna go play and eventually fall asleep while doing so. I hope to get up early tomorrow morning to go to church at 11am..haha.
Oh yea...by the way, I got my SE W910i already. it's a agood phone. It's really light. I havent quite tried the flicking thing yet. I may have to take it back though, the bluetooth on it doesnt quite work. Well, I got 2 weeks. So yea, the guy who serviced me was really nice. He's malaysian, kinda cute but short. Haha...he was really funny. Anyhooz, time to hit the hay...night...

why does my iphone keep f-ing up?

2008-03-08T06:24:00.002+08:00

I'm annoyed...the flight to melbourne was really long and when I finally arrived, I saw that my iPhone wasnt working...AGAIN!! It just cant seem to detect a network. I think I dont have a choice but to get a phone with 3. I mean, it's alright considering it's free but it's just quite a lot of hassle.

Musa's asking me to unlock my phone by myself but I'm worried I may fuck it up some more...I'll try anyway...whats the worst that could happen right ? spend more money to get it reformatted again..? haha..I just got home about an hour ago..spent 40 bucks on a cab ride and now I've got both my suitcases open with stuff strewn everywhere...safe to say that I missed my apartment..=)I really love this place.

I was sitting next to a really nice couple just now. The lady was an ozzie and the guy was a kiwi...big guy. He helped me stow my hand carry in the overhead compartment...I cant help being short. Really nice guy..goes to show that you shouldnt let someone's size scare you away..=)

Anyhooz, will prolly blog later..gonna install my new webcam and try unlock my phone...again...

sad...

2008-03-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

I cant believe summer is over and I have to fly off in less than 12 hours. Singapore should be heaps of fun but it's the flight back to melbourne that I'm dreading and the fact that when I arrive, I'll have nobody. I hope Stalker comes to pick me up so I'll have someone at least. I dont want to be sad when I get back. I know I'll feel really bad.

Today was awesome. Had lunch with Tina and Tz Siang. Kevin came just as we were finishing up. Quite annoyed coz Kenny Y didnt show up. Oh well, I wouldnt expect anything less. After lunch, I did a bit of walking around with Tina and bought quite a lot of stuff. Saw Javon at Baiduri coz he's working there. 2.40 came and I had to pick up Aaron from school and head over to the Cemetery to visit Kung Kung's grave. I miss him. You're forever in my heart Kung Kung.

Had a lim teh session at Fleur De Lys with Irene..it was fun. she was bubbly as ever =) then we just walked around the Seri Qlap mall. Had to pay ANOTHER visit to the Apple Store to get my msn reconfigured...so many problems man...we waited and waited ybut AGAIN, we ended up going home without having done anything at the shop. Stupid. We went to pick up Mito from Terrace Hotel just before going home. Mito is a masseuse. So we had $10 massages at our house just now.

I was the first to go. I decided to get a Shiatsu massage. It was quite good...so relaxing that I fell asleep..haha...my massage was only meant to be an hour...but I think I got almost 2 hours worth. He's quite cute. I dont know what my fascination with Indon dudes is man. I think I should try dating one in Melbourne. Haha. Well, this guy kept focusing on my ass for some reason. Hmm...and he kept commenting on how good my body was...so it was a bit weird. He even said that if I have any holidays, just go over to Indonesia and he'll take me out. Get this, I only met him today. Oh well, he's a nice enough guy but I dont think I'll take him up on his offer. He has a son in Indonesia that's turning 5 so he'll be leaving in August. Sad though, he's not married..he kept talking about a girlfriend.

Anyhooz, we had my going away dinner with family. My aunties and uncle came and we just had fun talking about random things. Pictures will go up on facebook when I get to melbourne. I think I'm really gonna miss a lot of people, most of all sophie...:( I wont get to watch her grow..oh well...there's always the webcam. She was so adorable tonight...

I sort of finished packing already but I have a feeling I'll be doing some more tomorrow morning...I'll just head to bed now ( at least try ) and get up early tomorrow morning to get some stuff done...night all...the next time I post, I'll be out of Brunei...:(

iPhone is fixed..

2008-03-06T00:39:00.002+08:00

I finally got my iPhone fixed just now...it took me a while to track down a place to get it fixed and it costed me $150 bucks extra...SHIT...so now the price of the phone has gone up to $850 instead of $700. I had no choice. If I didnt get it done, I wouldnt even be able to use it.

I got my hair coloured 2 colours and cut. I like it. I purposely got it cut short so that I wouldnt have to cut it again in the next couple of weeks. Save myself a bit of money. Not bad also. I got all that done for $62. Apparently two colours would normally cost $120. Well, Shahdon now considers me and my sister to be his Anak Angkat Cina...and Sophie to be his Cucu Angkat. It's sweet in a way.

I spent my afternoon shuttling aaron from school to tuition and then we chilled out at CoffeeZone while waiting for my phone to get fixed. 5pm passed...it still wasnt done...so we walked around...walked walked walked...got fed up of walking so we went to AVE at 5.40ish and waited there...we ended up just sitting there till about 6.30 and it started pissing down. We waited till it died down a bit. Took pictures of Starfish and Seaslugs at Siong koko's shop then we ran through the rain back to the car. It was fun...I was squealing all the way...Aaron was busy complaining bout his shoes...it really was funny.

So far, I havent packed my bags yet...lazy...haha..I checked in my flights already. So I dont have to worry about getting a seat, especially in the Singapore-Melb sector. *phew* the only thing I really have to worry about is my luggage and being overweight..I managed to get Kenny to pick me up from the airport in Singapore then we're gonna go see Tua Ee and Tua Tiu ( I think Kenny will be going somewhere else while I'm at their house) then we'll prolly go to Sim Lim Square to get my webcam...=) He's such a nice guy. Too bad he's not on the same flight back. He's coming back around Easter...18th...

It seems Ying wont be able to pick me up from the airport. She be busy with GAMSAT prep. I'll see her on Sunday anyways so it's alright. It seems everyone will be busy with their own stuff on the day I get back. I really hope I dont feel homesick!!

Anyhooz...gotta input numbers into my phone...laterz

at kk airport

2008-03-04T10:39:00.003+08:00

Its not even 11 yet and we're already at the airport. Early I say. Luckily I still can use the Internet but the signal is really really weak so I can't quite move around. Oh well. Can't complain when I'm not even paying for the service. Oh yes did I mention that I'm using my new iPhone to blog? :) on one hand I'm really happy that I have it, on the other hand I'm annoyed because I'm already experiencing software problems :( that prolly just means I have to go to an authorized dealer to getvit sorted out. Boo~~ I hope I can get it sorted out before Friday.

Which reminds me. I'm leaving in 2-3 days. I don't know how it can be possible to be happy and sad at the same time. I miss my friends from the competition and I realized that I only managed to say bye properly to 2 ppl. The LO and my indon friend. Sorry ppl I didn't manage to do very much shopping. Spent most of my time at the sports complex and watching matches. Anyhooz better cut this post short. Gotta help with the luggage check in. Laters.

Iphone and nintendo ds.

2008-03-03T01:20:00.002+08:00

China won the men's finals against Korea just now...there wasnt really much fight in it. Dad found out that the locals watching the match either had to pay 500 yuan per match watched or 1000 yuan per season...its crazy!! the hall had a 30,000 person capacity. So imagine the amount of money involved...

I bought my Iphone and Nintendo DS just now. I love 'em both ooodles and oodles...in total I spent about 1100 BND today...I've never spent so much in one go. I'll take photos when I have more time...ie when we reach kk...everyone around me is busy packing for the early flight tomorrow...and I was meant to take pictures with the Kyrgystan boys but then..they went into their room and never came out...kerlian yes ? haha...I'm quite sad to leave the LO behind. Also, knowing that I'll never ever see H again...sigh..yup...THAT feeling is back again...sigh..

Anyhooz..we gotta get up at 5.30 tomorrow morning coz we need to take a cab down to Shenzhen airport...so...gonna go to bed now...nightz..

it sucks that I wont see you anymore...:(

2008-03-01T23:26:00.002+08:00

My china romance has come to a complete halt. He wont accept the present that I got him for his birthday so now it's still with me. Really sad. He told me just now that this year is his last year for playing tabletennis with the Indonesian team. I feel shattered when I heard that. He looked really sad too...so I guess it's all mutual. He wont be turning up at the finals match tomorrow so for sure I wont see him anymore. I wanted to take more pictures with him but he didnt want to. He said something about his mother saying that if you take pictures too many times, the people you take pictures with will become more ugly. I dont know if it's just some indonesian thing or what...but yea...still sad...coz now I realise how much that I like him alot...too bad I guess...

I tried to cover up my feeling sad by diving headfirst into the womens finals match between Singapore and China. China won 3-1....but still Li Jia Wei is awwwesome!!! she won Guo Yue...(GY was reduced to tears upon losing..) and I managed to see Wang Nan ( my favourite player) and Zhang Yining play!!! Unfortunately I still havent managed to take pics with Wang Nan :( I dont think I'll get the chance though....sad....

I managed to take pictures with Fukuhara Ai after meeting one of the Japanese umpires and with Joo Se Hyuk...he was quite nice.

Moving on to the negatives of the day.....MOTHER.....

Today I got very badly verbally abused....I dont think I can ever go shopping alone with her. She kept yelling at me from the moment I woke up. Dad told me I had no choice in going shopping with her..so I went...and I was sulking the whole time. After an hour of pacing in a bra shop and walking around for a bit I figured I couldnt take it anymore. I made her put me in a taxi to go back to the hotel. The day got better from that point onwards.

I think I'll be getting an Iphone tomorrow...I'm just gonna pass the China pda to aaron and give my phone to pig...all's fair I suppose considering I'm paying for the phone myself. Hopefully dad wont have to umpire at all tomorrow...*fingers crossed* so we can go shopping...=) I dont want to go with her again....not alone...

still sad about H...:(

they're leaving me behind...

2008-02-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

We finished playing with 5 wins and 2 losses. Not so sure if we still have matches tomorrow but even if we do, I cant play. My team mates are going home tomorrow morning...leaving me behind. Oh well..at least I can do my moping, trying to look pretty and staring at really hot dudes as they play.

Apparently, the dude that I like, he lost his phone. That's why he didnt call me or anything. I saw him just now and shouted "SOMBONG!!" Coz he himself said he 'tidak pandai sombong' haha..kesian lah...he kept trying to explain with his manager next to him. Haha. He said he was gonna buy a new phone and a new line today but I dont know if he has already or not. I'll probably just see him tomorrow or something...I'll just hang around the Gymnasium I guess...the guys only want to go at 3pm but I know I'll be bored...knowing me, I'll end up getting up really early not knowing what to do. So I'll try to head to the gym early...haha...on my own...so sad...I could go shopping with my mum but I dont really want to...I'd rather spend my time looking at guys..haha...call me crazy..

I know now people from Iceland, Pakistan, Maldives, Kosovo, Kyrgystan, Tanzania, Benin, South Africa and Indonesia...well, I knew the Indons for a while now...but I met new people =D Anyhooz, I'm trying to look at my photo comments on facebook but its just not moving...hmmmpf...

I gotta go before my laptop dies...ta..oh yea...I met Ma Lin, Samsonov and Saive today =D

a stint of depression has got me down

2008-02-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

I think I'll only be able to blog for a while today. I've got about half an hour more before I have to take the shuttle back to the stadium for our last competition of the day.

So far the count is 2 wins and 2 losses. We won Maldives and Benin and lost to Pakistan and South Africa but the losses were very close. Part of the reason why I feel so down is coz I played the final match against South Africa and I dont feel like I played well at all. The other part of the reason is coz when I started playing the final match, the Indonesian guys team came to sit and watch the match...and in the event, watch me lose. The guy that I sorta like was sitting there and he saw me play soooo badly. Dad was there too...so I have a feeling I'm gonna get lectured when I see him later.

The dude that I like likes me back. This is my china romance.I'm allowed to have one..haha...but yea...I dunno if he's ignoring me or if he's just being sweet and giving me my space but for now, he's not talking to me or even texting me. I'm not sure if he's avoiding me coz I played so badly and he feels that we arent even in the same league so he shouldnt associate himself with me. This guy won 2005's SeaGames...so obviously he's in a whole different league...I feel so ashamed with myself.

Anyhooz...so far..China is the bomb!! Things here are uber cheap and I've met so many people. A couple of days ago Coach Lu ( our old coach) flew over from Lanchang just to see us. We had dinner at this fancy seafood restaurant. Fancy China style of course. It was a bit disgusting coz the restaurant served exotic dishes like turtle, eel, snakes, silk worms, giant waterboatmen, dog, etc...I really felt kasian for the animals.

Coach Lu is supposedly married already but I'm not so sure how true that bit of information is. We met his fiance/wife alreday a couple of days ago but she doesnt quite seem to like me. I think it's because coach mentioned that I was one of his best protoges and that he was willing to fly over to melbourne to see me. But that could just be me thinking out of the box again.

Anyhooz..I think I need to get ready for my match against Kosovo later on. I need to play a helluva lot better than I did just now. Although, people have said that I've improved, I dont see it in myself. I need to push myself harder. Jia You!! I hope H talks to me. I really need him to...otherwise I'd continue to doubt myself and my ability to play. Jia You steph!!!

Hello from China

2008-02-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'd really love to put up pictures but I cant. I bought the wrong card reader. I feel so stupid today. Who would've thought that my sd card reader wouldnt be able to read the produo...lolz..

DAY 1

Anyhooz, yesterday we (Me, Mum, Dad, Su Shan, Sia Mee Mee, Lee Pak Kui, Paul, Wang Fook, Douglas and Ah Liao) travelled from Miri to KK. We stayed the night at KK. Seriously, I dont like cities like KK. It's too behind the times for me. I know, I sound like a snob. What to do ? I was built that way.

Well, we checked into our really really crap hotel called Holiday Hotel. It was cheap...you pay for quality. Then there was this really really loud noise downstairs. I thought it was just motorbikes...Su Shan looked out the window and saw a lion dance performance. She loves the sort of thing so we went down to take pictures...there was a lion dance and a dragon dance performance going on for the pharmacy below.

We stood right in front where the owners stood and watched as one lion did the pole jumping thing. It was really impressive...the head went upside down to take the cabbage on the pole to 'eat' it...I was trying to take a nice picture of the lion and out of nowhere this head of cabbage flew straight at my head...the lion targetted me...it was so funny...there were so many people around and it targetted me. Haha...lucky?

We went walking around to find a place to have dinner after that coz mum was really hungry...walking walking walking and finally we ended up at a restaurant that mum swore she'd never go back to. And still we ate there...it was this restaurant called Portview. Mostly seafood naturally. I've got pictures...they'll go up as soon as I can get them up. After dinner we went walking around and I got my Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks...mmmmmm....staaaarbucks...it's been 4 mths...sigh..haha

I shared a room with Shan and Mee Mee...and face it...with both of them around, you'd never get much rest...they're soooo loud...Mee Mee has a really wild imagination....she kept going "Ru guo....." and then she'd start her hypothetical questions..haha..one was if you met a guy with only a 5th grade education, but he was really really rich with a business....would you date him. Aspects of the story kept developing till this hypothetical guy suddenly had feelings and became a real guy...it was soooooo odd..haha..we couldnt stop laughing and she kept whacking me. Crazy foo chow woman!! Needless to say, we all ended up sleeping really late. She kept saying...ok, enough...time to sleep...then after half a minute she'd turn and go..."ru guo....." haha...

Day 2

We got up earlier than we wanted to coz mum called our room. All three of us heard the phone but Shan and I refused to move...so Mee Mee went to get the phone and she was like "hello......" and she put down the phone....6 times...half an hour later, mum knocked on our door...thats when we all got up...when light shone into our room, we saw that the phone was off hook. The top of the phone was placed where the bottom of the phone should be...and mum was yelling.."how come cannot call your room one!!!" we went hysterical again when we saw what Mee Mee did!!!

Our flight from KK to Shenzhen only took about 2 and half hours...time flew pretty quickly. I spent my time playing my psp and playing tai ti with the guys on the plane. I kept losing coz my head wasnt really in it. When we touched down in Shenzhen we got some taxi drivers to take pictures for us while we waited for our car. It was hilarious...the guy turned my camera the wrong way round and tried to use the lens as a peep hole...you know...like olden day cameras where you look through a hole to focus...we thought he was just mucking about...but then..we realised that he was seriously trying to take a picture that way...It was sooooooooo funny!!! I swear...we all thought he was kidding..I kept laughing to myself all the way to Guangzhou.

We were initially supposed to take a train to Guangzhou but we ended up taking 2 cabs instead. We thought the drivers knew where the Golden Bridge Hotel was...but it turns out, they didnt...we were lost and driving around for 3 BLOODY LONG HOURS...imagine being crammed in the back seat of a corolla with your mum, a noisy foochow woman and another girl...it was HELL I tell you!! Especially since mum kept complaining hot and the foochow woman kept talking REALLY loudly....it was stupid.

Well, we got there eventually and the driver got paid what he wanted...1200ren min pi...I dunno how to spell...which came down to about $240 total. It was alright coz there were 5 of us in the cab. But I really really needed to stretch my legs and get some food in me after that trip. We didnt have lunch today.

We went shopping after dinner...well..rather, we went walking around and we walked in a straight line all the way past our hotel...lots of nice little shops. Lingerie is really cheap here...I didnt get any though just now...gonna wait for mum. I saw a couple of hot dudes just now. One that worked at the phone shop and another that walked past me...sigh...guys...so many of them around. I cant wait to meet the really hot ping pong dudes...oh yea...the top tabletennis players here hold the same status as film stars...they're on billboards and posters more than actors...it's crazy...I've seen sooooo many pictures of Wang Liqin, Wang Nan, Ma Lin and Zhang Yining already..

Anyhooz, just now, we almost got hit by a bus. We were waiting for cars to pass before crosssing the road (as you do) and the bus that was stationary started moving right towards us. The driver saw us...he was just being a dick.

Anyhooz..gonna head to bed now. It's been a long long day...haha...Nitez

mental exhaustion

2008-02-20T17:45:00.002+08:00

I'm sooo tired..just got back from Bowling..it was heaps and heaps of fun. Went with Fadhli, Aimi, Zaimah, her sister Enoi and Azman. We had so much fun bowling really badly and shit. I was bad to begin with...then I got a lot better to a point where my arm just got tired...so then I became shit again...haha

This morning we had an RTB filming thing..I dunno..it was alright I guess...I'd rather much be at home sleeping throughout the whole day...but that's just me.

OMG the trip to China is TOMORROW!!! which means...I'll be flying back to melbourne NEXT WEEK!!! SO FAST!! WTH!!!!

yea...late realisation.

My my...how time flies so quickly when you're having fun. I really enjoyed these past couple of months...it's so sad that it has to end. Wei already left for Iran. SH koko went back to KL today...Alan left on Monday and Rach left a couple of weeks ago...boo~~

Oh well...things are as they should be yea...

it all started with a roti telur...

2008-02-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

The last 2 days have been plenty of good fun. I spent all day yesterday at my sister's place. She had her open house. It was really eventful. There was heaps and heaps of food...we even had a roti man and a teh tarik man come over to provide fresh roti telur, roti kosong, roti john, roti cheese and roti banana...I only heard of the last 2 yesterday. Alongside that, there was laksa which was catered by her friend's mum and buffet-style food catered by Andaman. Safe to say...there was a LOT of food...haha

It was only supposed to be a normal open house. Nothing huge was planned...just the usual people visit, they eat...people talk...get angpow and leave...but then, the houses behind were having a lion dance performance and my mum and sister decided to call them over to perform for us as well...so they walked over to the house behind to 'book' a performance...lo and behold, it was my mum's cousin's troup, from the Hokkien association. So yea, we got our lion dance. Sophie was very good..she didnt cry at all during the whole thing. She was mesmerized.

These performers are crazy I tell you. There were 2 lions and they requested 2 bottles of Chivas and half a case of beer. We only gave them one bottles and 12 cans out of which 4 were smuggled out. They did their performance with the cabbage, carrots, oranges, celery, etc and turned it into a really creative piece of art and to top it all off...the two lions with the help of two other people polished off the full bottle of chivas, the 8 cans of beer AND a full bottle of water...it was amazing. But it took them something like 20 mins to do all that...it was the longest lion dance I've ever seen...haha...

After all that alcohol, they still managed to do their jumping tricks, albeit not as stable as it would've been sober. Haha...it was good entertainment though. Yesterday was a good day for gambling as well..I won $160 in one hand of bandat...haha..burn, burn, burn, then 5 cards 21...haha...it was AMAZING..

Anyhooz, pictures should be up on my facebook soon...I'd like to put them up here, but it takes FOREVER to upload..so till I manage to get on a good connection or be bothered to resize my pics, they'll be on my facebook....for now, it's pokertime!

the big pimple in the middle of my head...

2008-02-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

I just got home from a gambling session at my cousin's place...it was fun. Although, a bit annoying at first coz I was down about 60...but I came out a winner...so still happy. I should put this as a reminder to myself to NOT sit next to my mother when she is dealing...such crap luck...coz she controls the cards that she deals to me...I started to do so much better when I sat next to my cousin...

I woke up very confused this morning. I got a msg from my dad that read something about a Tabletennis related Press Conference. I didnt read the whole message and thought it was today. So I messed up the whole timetabling of my day...I didnt realise till about lunch when I talked to my dad. So funny. Anyways, that got sorted out pretty quickly. I managed to collect my 'big' angpow from my godmother...but unfortunately, she gave me the set amount in the wrong currency, so I lost out by about $125. Oh well, it's money from the sky so I really shouldnt be complaining yea?

My laptop's fucked up. I think the new 1Gb worth of RAM has burnt out coz the processing is soooooooo slow...it's annoying...and the other day when my dad tried to use my laptop, he was attacked by Trojans...haha...so yea, need to get the RAM fixed AND get it reformatted...damn soi...alang alang buy a new computer right ? But then....I want a desktop.....hmm...but then..if I decide to get a desktop, it means I'll be computerless for quite a while!!! Why arent I rich enough to buy a desktop AND a laptop....scratch that...why cant I have everything!!! haha...unreasonable much ?

you cant end tai ti with a 2...

2008-02-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

I just got home from cavan's place. I managed to come out with $65 extra. I cant say the same for my mum though. Really sad how she cant pull herself away from the tables. I really feel like I shouldnt be playing 3 kings. It's a waste of time and effort. I'd rather play poker...too bad my mother doesnt feel the same.

Went down to KL today to help W&S stock up for their open house. Too bad only 4 of us went down so we only have 2 full cases of tiger and quite a few bottles of wine. The beer wont last till Sat. Thats the sad truth of it all. We were supposed to go down again on Thursday but I dont think I'd be able to go with. My dad took my passport just now and I wont get it back till after 4 days. Getting my visa for China done. Too bad. I have yet to tell S of W&S.

Played touch just now and it was soooo much fun. We played really well today. I loved it coz the ground was soggy and we could slide around as much as we liked. Again, I missed out on doing my slide...damn...It was a lot of fun though. We're really getting the hang of Kiwi Touch. =)

After Touch training, we decided to join the big boys for their full contact training...It was alright I guess..but taking part in their training session always has a knack of making me feel inferior. Given I am a girl, therefore, they're stronger and more built for contact. But still...everytime some dude passes to me, he would very obviously slow down and pass me a lighter ball...it's very demeaning...I CAN TAKE IT!!...I can run faster than a lot of them. Oh well..at least this is proof that 'chivalry' isnt dead...if that's what it is. There is however one person I cant stand. CC...when he saw me playing with the boys, he was like "Pfft..." and he laughed...then when I stopped, he asked in a really mocking-ish way "why'd you stop ? Did we scare you ?" ..... Bastard....I hope his dick falls off...haha...

I just dont know the rules of contact rugby yet...and they were all training in their positions. What was I supposed to do. I dont even really know what each position stands for...much less have a position of my own..pfft....

Ok...enough bitching...I'm going to bed...haha...nitez..

I <3 CNY!!

2008-02-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

Yen Ying and Rach have gone back to melbourne already...I've made new friends...life's good...I mean, I wish ying and rach were still here but it's all good.

I got back about an hour ago from Marvin's place. It was fun. I made new friends and won their money playing really low stakes blackjack. It's CNY..what you gonna do. I spent most of my day at Marvin's place..haha...

CNY this yea is fun. It's been really eventful. Lemme give it to you in a nutshell.

Day 1
- We had our open house.
- Most of the people that I invited showed up ( =])
- After our open house, Aaron and I went over to Tracy's house where we had fun gambling and talking to the Lai's.
- Left the Lai's place early and went to 2kim's place to gamble some more. Won something like 20 bucks.

Day 2
- Slept in, went visiting.
- Mum tried to matchmake me with this random dude at a house where she didnt know many people.
- The dude she tried to match me with wasnt all that good looking but mum thought he was. He was the son of the owner of this dress shop that we went to in Batu Bersurat =.="
- Met up with an ex school mate from STPRI. She now has a 1 year old son (!!!!)
- Went to Church for the Ash Wednesday mass (on a friday)

Day 3
- Wasted the day.
- Went to the Hua Ho house where we got our ang pows in the form of a Hua Ho voucher.
- Visited one of Steve's granduncles when our car sorta 'broke down' at their house.
- The car is still at their house in salambigar.
- Went to lim teh with SH koko.
- Went back to gamble and won over $100.

Day 4 - today
- Spent the day at Marvin's place.
- Met up with Marv, Alan and Wil ni.
- Made new friends - Marshall and Marcus (Marvin's Brothers), Marshall ( Marv's friend), Jerome, Kevin, Azman (who turned out to be my distant cousin....lol)

Yea anyhooz..that was it in a nutshell..most of the pictures taken have been posted on friendster...so just take a look there...I'm uber tired and I'm just gonna head to bed now otherwise I'd probably not be able to go for training in the morning.

yay faster system!!

2008-02-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

I just got my RAM upgraded...so instead of 512MB, it's been upgraded to 1.256GB..haha...I know, why so alang alang right ? Well, I just didnt see the point. I didnt realise my laptop was 'slow' to begin with. I just kept thinking that it was the stupid Brunei internet speed. Oh well, now I see the difference especially when I surf. I have yet to see the difference in download speeds.

Went to training this morning. So annoyed..the people I usually train with failed to let me know that they werent training in the morning so I was there...waiting...waiting....waiting...luckily there were other people there as well. So I competed against the oldies and won.

I was actually supposed to change the rubber of my tabletennis bat to the Andro Plasma (excited!!!) but then, since one of my team mates failed to show up, I didnt have the super-sharp surgical scissors to cut the rubber...so I havent changed it yet. I'll be showing up late for training in the afternoon. It's my reaction to their lack of consideration. haha...lazy also lah...might be going down to KL with SH koko...cant wait...!!!

Anyhooz...lunch time!

.slack.

2008-01-31T11:18:00.000+08:00

I was streaming Enchanted last night and I put it on pause so that it'd download quicker. This morning when I got up, it was done. Haha...I reallly REALLY wanted to watch it. I mean, we all need a bit of love and romance (fluff) in our lives from time to time, no? So yea...it was done loading so I decided to watch it. I totally spaced that I had to go for training..haha..by the time I was done watching it, it was already 10...so yea...I missed training...I'll go later at 2...it's alright...just as long as my dad doesnt ask me how training was...haha..that would REALLY suck.

Anyhooz, I've reverted to my old ways of watching movies online due to boredom and the fact that I cant be fucked to go out just to buy dvds...I know they're cheap here and all but you know...the power of CBF is strong..haha...

I've officially run out of things to do. I cbf-ed to go for training..but I know I gotta otherwise all hell will break loose. It was really weird coz after I watched Enchanted, I decided to go downstairs to play the piano for a bit. While I was playing, my mind kind of went astray. I started thinking of Wil of all people. It got me really frustrated. I cant remember if I mentioned this but Wil's been too busy for me lately.

A couple of days ago, I called him right after training and he was like, "Sorry havent been in contact with you. I've been busy." By busy he means he's just too lazy to contact me or he's made other plans that he's got no balls to tell me bout. I mean, it's not like it's any of my business but he really doesnt need to lie. But he did anyways. He always says, I'll call you later but...he never does. I know..I sound pretty sad at the moment..but I'm trying to prove a point here.

Well, that night, I was out with Rachael at Gdg and we were walking back to my car coz Rach wanted to drop some stuff off instead of lug it all around with us. Guess who we saw. Him....and a girl in the car...So I pretended like nothing was wrong and just waved at him. He looked as though he'd been caught doing the dirty. Needless to say, the girl looked slightly annoyed that he was waving at me. At least this confirms my assumptions that he's had other plans this whole time and that he has wrongly blamed his lack of spare time on Futsal and work. I dont know why I feel so betrayed. It's not like he's got any obligation towards me....no, wait...scratch that...he does..I mean, what decent person talks to someone EVERYDAY, pretends to be a BESTFRIEND then suddenly out of the blue decides that he's had enough of this one person and moves on.

This whole time I felt like I'd done something wrong and he was pissed at me or something (well, actually no...I never felt that way.) It's just that, if I really was as good a friend as he thought I was, he wouldnt have felt the need to lie or to avoid me at all costs in the event that he decides to form a new relationship. It's soooooo stupid. Should I start paying him in kind and ignore him for all he's worth till I leave? I dont want to look needy or anything so yea, here's me...ignoring him.
Guess who wont be invited to my open house....bitch!~

the picture of annoyance

2008-01-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

I dunno why but today's been pretty crap.

At lunch, my maid decided to 'show her colours' she started shouting at me...so I shouted back. Then my mum walked in and she immediately suspected me of starting the squabble. I swear I always get it. The maid's employment is hanging by very thin threads...coz even her employer (my dad) doesnt like her. I hope she knows what she's getting into by getting me on her bad side.

Dad and I went to the hospital to see my aunty after lunch. It was quite fun at first. We went to her room and just had a chat. One of my aunty's friends were there too. She just kept complimenting me so that was fun. Then one of her other friends came to visit. Family friends. She came in and asked my dad...so this is your youngest son eh ? -.-" haha... that got cleared up pretty quickly. On our way back down, dad decided to take the lift instead of walk one flight.

It was a bit creepy coz the life kinda went haywire (that's the explanation I'm gonna stand by). We pressed G and it kept going from G to 2, then back to G then back up to 2. It went really quickly and the doors wouldnt open. I mean, they opened like a bit...then it was like someone pressed the close button so the doors wouldnt completely open. We finally got out on the 1st floor coz people on the outside pressed the open button. It was really quite creepy.

Went for training which was quite good. Talked with Tiam and Tzu Min. They trained with us for a while but they left early coz they found out that the Brunei contingent had been scrapped from the Teluk Danga competition. I wonder what the story behind that is...I'm still going to China though. Nothing has changed.

I'm bored..

my...time sure flies...

2008-01-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

I went shopping today!!! Haha...bought 2 dresses. My purchases are all actually meant to be for Chinese New Year (which is in less than 2 weeks by the way!!) but like, I managed to find one that's soooo suitable for clubbing so I got that as well...haha...I love my dresses...now all I have to do is lose more weight and go shoe shopping...all I need is like one pair of shoes for cny...then I can get everything else in China when I go there for the competition. In my head, it's more like a shopping trip and a photo taking trip than a competition...haha..it's so funny...

You know how they say you should never meet your mentors coz you'll only get disappointed? Well, I hope to meet mine in a month's time and I really hope I dont get disappointed...yes, I know...it's the stubborn-ness in me resurfacing..haha.. Xiao Jun says that Wang Nan is really really proud and she wont 'waste' her time talking to me...but I'm gonna try and prove her wrong...of course I'm gonna get my dad to come with me...in case I need a translator...God I hope she speaks English..haha. Of course I wanna meet up with other TT people and take pics with them as well...it's my perogative!!! I wanna meet hot tt players like Michael Maze...oooooh ooooh...and SAMSONOV!!! He's hot...!!! Camera dont fail me...haha..

Anyhooz...it just dawned on me how much I want a Nintendo DS Lite. I want the Crimson & Black one and I've finally taken measures to ensure that I'd get it.

I asked SH koko to try look for it in KL before he comes back and get it if he finds it. If he doesnt manage ( coz I kinda asked at the very last minute ) then it's ok, I'll just spend an extra 100 and get it here...no biggy...I mean, I really want it so I'm willing to spend. CNY is coming up anyways..so there will be money flowing in.

I was supposed to meet Jason at the beach today..but it was quite stupid coz he told me that he was going to Muara beach. When I got there with Aaron, we walked around and saw the YDM group - I only knew a few people like Ronald, Raymond and Chester - and Aaron REALLY didnt wanna stay so we bought Sotong Tumbuk and called dad to pick us up. Luckily he was in a good mood with me today =D.

When we went back to Serasa, we decided to hang out at Tai Ku's place where we watched part of the Men's Singles finals between Tsonga and Djokovic...I'm sooooo happy that Djokovic won!! Hah!! Tai ku was supporting Tsonga..haha..we were only there for a while though. Jason finally called me back at this point and told me that they were at the 'hidden beach'...haha..the beach at the Muara Lodge..at that point I just couldnt be bothered to go anymore.

Left at about 6 and went to wei's place where we found them trying to take proper pictures of Sophie in a Chongsam for their open house invitations. Unfortunately, the lil girl wasnt being very cooperative...oh yea...this morning she was screaming in church just coz this VERY annoying lil boy was doing the same right next to her...she's at the 'monkey see monkey do' stage. Ooooh and it's a bit scary now coz apparently she can stand up in her crib now. But still, she's VERY VERY CUTE!!!

Oh yea...to all those who are interested...The Liew Family (my family of course) is hosting an open house from 11am onwards on 7th February 2008 (first day of CNY).
The address is No.40, Spg 564
Jln Subok, Kg Belimbing

It's on the side of Subok that's closest to the Sg Akar Roundabout and the rubbish tip...no...we CANT smell the tip from my house...if you do get lost, gimme a call...8988505

oh the irony of it all

2008-01-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

I dunno...I think I should stop trying to contact Wil. He seems to be avoiding me full time now. He still owes me money for 'helping' him bring back alcohol from KL. Dammit. I feel like such a doormat. Letting him walk all over me like that...it's ridiculous. I shouldnt allow him to do this to me. I'm no tool.

So yea...I'll only talk to him when he calls me or something. I'm better than this. I spent the evening playing Rummy with Josh, Steph, Rif, Amanda, Becky, Carrie, Jason and Aaron. Of course not all at one go coz only 4 ppl can play at a time. It was quite fun! I only took 1 shot at the party. Good or not ?! Haha..so I was pretty sober most of the time. It's weird watching little kids drink and get drunk. The attention they crave and the things they do to obtain said attention. I dunno...kids these days. And the funny thing is, I'm not very far off...I'm only what 2 years older than most of these kids....but I was never really as out-of-control as they are. It's pretty sad.

Dad is coming back tomorrow..I dont know whether to be happy or sad. I'm chatting with him at the moment and he's at the airport already complaining bout not having eaten anything since lunch. I dont even know what time it is there at the moment but it's really weird. Him complaining like that. I suppose he IS only human.

I quite enjoyed going out and not receiving messages at night while he was away. However, I did NOT like mum checking in on me every night like I'm a little kid and asking me for money for petrol and all that. It's not like she doesnt make her own money. Very saaadd...Anyhooz...Gotta get up early later on to pick dad up from the airport. =D I wonder what he bought me!!!

I feel like a voodoo doll

2008-01-24T15:55:00.000+08:00

I just got back from a facial and now my face hurts like hell and I'm all red dotty...haha..I still wanna go out tonight but again...I dont know if I should coz I'm so blotchy and well, I have yet to get called out. So yea...in the mean time, I'll just stay home and vegetate.

I went for lunch just now with Tina and mid way, Kevin and Tz Siang came over. It was random coz we didnt call them. But I got a hug from Tz Siang and he just sat right next to me. I thought that was 'normal' but then, he kept inching closer and leaning over a hell of a lot. So it felt a bit weird after a while..

Anyhooz...nothing better to do so I'll just play tarot cards or something...haha

suddenly everyone's on first name basis with him

2008-01-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

I just got home from playing snooker and chilling at Gripps with Rach and Alan. It was soooo much fun! We played at Fullcan as usual and Ken, Rabbit, Tom, Yan Kong and some other guys were there as well...I dont remember laughing so hard before...well I do, but not lately.

I managed to get through the day without getting on anyone's nerves..I consider that quite an accomplishment. Here's to making life easier for the duration of my stay...It was weird coz when we got to Fullcan, Rabbit looked at me as if I had told him this huge huge lie...apparently, he thought that I had left Brunei already. But he heard wrong...haha I'm STILL HERE!!! Now, THIS is why I love being in Brunei...so many friends...makes me feel so loved...I dont know why when I go out often, though, I tend to feel guilty...like I shouldnt be going out so much.

I think the rest of my pictures are up on Facebook already..I still have yet to post pics here...I know...very slack.

I'm so out of it.

2008-01-23T20:19:00.000+08:00

Since I'm not allowed to go training, I spent the whole day sleeping. Seriously the only places I've been today are ISB and 2ee's house. I only went out to shuttle people around.

It's weird coz I think I slept 11 of my usual waking hours..it's really bad coz I think I'm falling ill as a result. Managed to catch some of the match between Federer and Blake and American Idol. I wish I was back in Melb watching the Australian Open in person...:(

On my way back home from sending 2ee to her house, Aaron asked me if I'd let him try drive. So yea, I let him drive from the simpang of our house to the front gate. What would normally take a minute, took almost 5. It was so funny. He just kept complaining about not being able to drive straight and he couldnt find the accelerator. Funny boy...ok..will try to put up pics if only aaron will let me. I'm so bored.

I wanted to go out. But then, no one to go out with and no where to go...double negative. I dunno...I'm just really bored...I wanna go out and have fun. :(

Oh yea...R.I.P Heath Ledger...he od-ed on sleeping pills apparently at his apartment in Manhattan....he was so young. Only 28...why would he do that...why ? Well, in the news reports it states that it was an accident...but could he have been suicidal ? Who knows right ? Damn man...he was hot...:(

broken wooden soldier

2008-01-22T12:25:00.000+08:00

I hurt my arm again. Yesterday I went to see Lata to get my arm 'fixed'...it was sorta alright for a while but this morning when i got up, it felt all weird and heavy...like the muscle just didnt want to work anymore so it was just acting like dead weight. Lata's baby is so cute...his name is Rohan. It was funny coz when I saw him, I was like "hey lata, I thought you had a baby boy...!!" Haha...easy mistake. Rohan had 2 hoop earrings..haha...but yea, it was really good to see her again.

She told me to rest from sports for a day. But no, I didnt listen. I went training this morning and I'll be going to play touch footy with the ISB people later on. Fun! Fun! I managed to re-hurt (if there's such a word) my arm again just now at training and there's no telling what's gonna happen later at touch. Haha..I cant help it. I miss playing touch and they only play once a week so I'm gonna rough it, then if it still hurts after touch, I'll go see lata again. I wont mention my sports action but somehow, I think she'll know. I cant lie to her...she just knows these things...it's a bit creepy. Please dont rain at 4...please...

Anyhooz, I'm uploading pics on facebook at the moment. As soon as all that's done, I'll upload the pics from KL here..internet's been really slow lately so I'm really sorry that you guys have to wait. Haha...patience is a virtue..my arm feels sooo heavy....:(

KL and pool

2008-01-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

My day was quite crap to begin with...mum just kept giving me shit all afternoon. Ok, so it's partly my fault that hell is breaking loose in my own home. I just cant stand to make conversation with her...starting tomorrow I'll try harder though.

I made the mistake of taking her car out just now. So yea...she called me and was yelling at me on the phone. I left the car in Gdg while Alan, Marvin, Wil Ni, Najat and I went to KL...haha...I went with Alan and the girls went with Marvin. It was so much fun. we talked about lots of crap...ate a lot of stingray, fried rice and chicken wings ( I didnt touch the wings of course) and we were all happy.

We played pool at Fullcan after that. I havent touched a cue since I last played with William..haha...so I shocked myself when I won all 4 people in a row. But in the 5th and very last match, Alan won me and that was that. I kaloked my way through it all...haha..but still, we all had tonz of fun. I like this single me. Being able to hang out with all these people and just have fun. Still, a part of me wants to be attached. It's difficult lah...but I'll get through it. Stupid me...I should have driven the merc..then at least the mother wouldnt have a reason to bug me. Stupid! Stupid!

Anyhooz..here are a couple of pics from rach's facebook. We took these on Friday. I've got pics from just now...hopefully I'll be able to upload them onto my laptop before my memory card eats itself again...

Oh yea...I managed to hurt my arm again...I dont know how but I only felt it while playing pool just now...

I'm annoyed...

2008-01-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

There I was having a good time..out with friends and I get a phone call from my dad...he told me to come back early coz there are 'bad hats' running around Brunei...geeez...as if I didnt know that...what if I was one of them right? Haha..anyhooz..i'm home now..cant be bothered to go out again...

Dad's leaving for Bahrain tomorrow night for this TT course...i hope it lasts a while so I can regain whats left of my social life....probably going to KL on Sunday with Alan, Rach (?), Wil Ni, Mabin and this other girl (dont know her name)....should be lots of fun!!! Cant wait...I hope I can get access to my passport...otherwise...it would suck sooooo badly..haha...

Anyhooz..just webcamming with SH koko...bored...he's my form of entertainment for the evening since I didnt get to go to Empire with the rest to take really lame pictures..haha...

I'm bored...gonna just stop here..I've got lots more to say but I guess I'm just not in the mood to type...

internet is too damn slow

2008-01-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

Too all those people who still read my blog, sorry bout the lack of pictures. I know I promised some in the last post but the internet is being a bitch...cant post any pics up...it takes so long just to get them on to the page much less publish them.

I didnt go for training at all today...my arms felt like they weighed two elephants..it's craaaaazy...haha...had trouble moving them to drive and operate chopsticks at lunch...I felt so retarded.

Went to get my hair cut at Shahdon's just now. I'm happy with my hair again...Shahdon is definitely the master of haircutting..haha...although there is much to be said about his styling. I played with Datuk K (the cat) but I had to stop coz he was getting a bit violent with his claws in my shirt. Yes, I know thats just the way cats are...Went for lunch at Excapade with Khalid...it's been too long dude. Kenny koko turned up in the middle of our meal. It's so good to see him again. We exchanged pleasantries and then he began mouthing..."is that your bf?" haha...he's so funny. I dont get how we can be so civil in person but when I text him, he just doesnt text back. I dont know if I should call him or not. I mean...he's got a gf already...be it made known to the public or not, he's still sorta attached and I dont know if it would be unappropriate...I dont want some random chick knocking me out in the middle of gdg..haha...

Anyhooz...Lid and I went to watch Game Plan...it was soooooooo good!! I especially loved the ballet part..haha..the rock does ballet...it was BRILLIANT. I enjoyed the show thoroughly...good start to 2008 in terms of movies for me!! Well yea, we chilled at West Street for an hour and a half while waiting for the movie to begin. It was fun, all we did was talk, caught up with each other's lives and criticized people. I swear...I think I've mastered the art of zoning out of conversations and zoning back in at the right time so as not to be caught 'out of it'...haha...no offence yea lid...haha..

Anyhooz..tomorrow is the anniversary of A-mah's death...I suppose I'll be going to my cousins house to pay respects after training then...

Time for bed...nightz...

my arms dont work no more...

2008-01-14T21:22:00.000+08:00

I got my tarot cards today!! Thanks boo boo...I also lost all use of my arms...stupid fitness test..!!!
Anyhooz..I think I did really really badly for the second part of the fitness test...I'm sooo weak..:( Dammit...I need to lose weight...if I lose weight, then the amount of weights that I'd have to lift would decrease too...apparently the ping pongers will be having another fitness test in March to see if they qualify for SUKMA in May...so yea..that doesnt affect me..but still...I feel so unfit. So I'll just continue going to fitness zone on my free passes...haha..

I dont think I'll be able to lift my arms tomorrow so yea..I may be skipping on training...we'll see how it goes lah...gonna get my hair cut in the morning...or not...or maybe I'll get it coloured...or not..haha...anyhooz...I'm really indecisive at the moment...obvious right ? So yea...I'll just put up the pics that I took AFTER my memory card got corrupted..haha...

day 1 of fitness test over...

2008-01-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

Lets see what I can remember from the test...

Flexibility = 36...
Shuttle = 42
Reaction test = 233ms
Sprint = 4.2secs for 30m
V03max (stamina run) = 14minutes

thats all I could remember...I think I'm still the same compared to before. Apart from my stamina run...I think I did a bit better...but yea...I would have gotten a better time if I didnt walk one round. So lazy man me!!

I'm so bored..was meant to go out with Rach and/or Tina..but then I just couldnt be bothered to coz I couldnt decide on what to do when I went out. I miss melbourne. At least there I know where I'm headed and approximately how much money I'd be spending...oh well..

Phase 2 of the fitness test will be scheduled for Monday at 2.30...will finally get that out of the way. Yes...I'm gonna commit myself to full-on training...TWICE a day starting Wed. Wed coz Monday I'll be having the fitness test in the afternoon and tuesday coz I accidentally scheduled a haircut session in the morning...totally spaced on early morning training...Gonna lose lots of weight and look hot for CNY/going back to Melb...haha..*pfft*

So what now? POKER!!! Sooooo addicted...I only just realised how come Wil gave me a calendar and an organiser the other day when I passed him the DVD at Brunei Times...He is featured there along with Dave, Kit and many other people...I feel so bad now...haha..I've had the calendar and the organiser for almost 5 days and I didnt think to take a look at them...only did just now coz wei told me...haha...Anyhooz...pokerstars time!!

no longer a Brunei Times intern.

2008-01-10T13:56:00.000+08:00

Yup...I ended my BT internship a couple of days ago for intensive training...Yay!! I'm gonna lose weight now...haha...

There was a poker night at my sister's place last night so I headed over right after my CB meeting with the remaining BSSMelb ppl. It was like our shortest meeting EVER!! Haha..it's a good thing. Yea, so I bought in once last night lost it coz I got reckless...as usual...then I just started playing dealer right after. I swear. My sister has some really hot friends..haha..a bit too old for me though. Too bad...haha...I slept over last night. Didnt really get much sleep coz Sophie woke up at 6ish and she was pretending to cry coz no one really paid her any attention. Haha..

Everyone else got up at about 10 coz my sister was expecting a few people. So yea, she had a contractor over to take a look at all the water damage inflicted on the house and some people from Fabrica over to choose what sorta wallpaper to put on her feature wall...I saw a few designs that I wouldnt mind having in my bedroom. Really pretty...

Anyhooz...it's now the perfect time to take a nap. Just had lunch so I'm feeling really comfy...and the weather outside is perfect...haha...drizzly and gloomy..haha

...oh love's gonna getcha down....

2008-01-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

Day 1 of my detox thing...and the feeling really sucks...I stood on the scale just now and guess what....no change...is this thing really gonna work ? I havent been cheating or anything...I dunno...only time will tell...

I feel like such a facebook stalker man!! I've been constantly going on to fb to check whether this guy has replied me or not...it's quite annoying coz I keep getting messages from this other person that I dont particularly want to talk to. BW. Oh well..at least he's stopped paying me in instalments already and has paid me a lump sum. He still owes me money so i'll just ask for it when I run out again. For the moment, I'm alright....My tarot cards have arrived in Brunei already...Boo boo's back from SG!! The cards are like....$55 haha....craaaazzay...

I'm so excited..I want them now!!! But unfortunately, I've gotta wait till he has time to come down to bandar...he wont tell me which deck he got me but he says it's not so evil looking..haha...oh well..at least I wont get scared by the images...

Anyhooz...I'm still waiting to get pictures from rano...from the BCG..

p/s dammit...i need to lose 15 kgs in order to be underweight...how unfair is that ?

I <3 gossip girl

2008-01-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching episode 12 of gossip girl...so sweet...i wish I could have a Dan/Serena type relationship...*sigh*

Quite tired and a bit hungry. Got up super early this morning to attend training that was meant to start at 8. Played till about 10.30....tiredness...sooo unfit...and now, my muscles are all aching...so stupid. Need to lose so much weight. Just waiting for dad to get home so we can have lunch.

I was supposed to go to Miri today but then dad decided to change plans and so we're going tomorrow instead. I'll be at the ICC this afternoon, helping rano out. Should be a lot of fun. If people from BT see me there...fuck it...whatever...I cant be bothered to care about what they think anymore. I mean, it's quite ridiculous. I've already been working there for a month and you cant say that the 'supervisor' has been busy EVERY SINGLE TIME I WAS THERE...too busy to sit down with me and show me what I did wrong. I mean...all it really takes is one time and about 15 minutes tops. But no, she got really stressed out yesterday and decided to bag me publicly...how humiliating...well, at least my other colleagues 'understood' what I was going through and they were quite supportive. Ok...so now I know for a fact that working at a newspaper is so totally not for me. LoLz...slow realisation right ?

Anyhooz...gotta go back to watching House again then will probably have to go take a shower and practice my GH3...you know...in case I get the chance to play later on. Haha...I really hope i dont make a fool outta myself..haha

the start of something new ?

2008-01-03T10:29:00.000+08:00

I actually got up at 6 this morning...goodness!! Dad, Yuin and I went to Kebajikan to go for a run. It was so tiring. After that went to Wei's place to get the lawnmower...haha..saw sophie...she's so adorable!! I dont think I'll ever be able to get over how cute she is...forever smiling..

I'm sooo tired. I wanted to go back to sleep after the jog, but there was barely an hour left before I had to go to work...so I played GH3 instead. I cant wait for 5pm to arrive. The start of my long weekend.

Going to miri tomorrow...hopefully...with family. So I'll be able to go shopping for new glasses...look around for tarot stuff and the likes. I really just dont want to be here at the moment. it's so blegh~~the atmosphere is a bit stifling. It's been two days in a row already that I've written articles and BT didnt publish them. Oh well...not good enough I guess ? See...I really dont think I'm cut out for all this 'investigative' journalism. LoLz...time to venture into PR. Not this holiday though. I have to work until February 7 I think it is. Oh well..hang in there steph...

So tired....

It's finally 2008!!

2008-01-01T15:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Ok...so seeing as this is the first post of the year...I figured I'd post up my new year's resolutions. The proper ones. I know I've done random ones before but these, I intend to keep.

#1. Turn vegetarian for 2008 - with exception for fish
#2. Become a proper tarot card reader
#3. Focus on getting at least an H2A average this year - need to be able to get into honours.
#4. Try to be more positive.
#5. Do more sports and try to cook more often in Melbourne.

Ok...that was short and sweet. Didnt want to make too many resolutions that I'd end up not keeping. I figured I could live without meat - I've been vegetarian already for about a month and it's all good. I gotta lose weight anyways.

I just got back from Nazrul and Suzila's wedding. Nazrul is my malay uncle. Ok....given he's only about 10 years older than me, it's still a bit weird calling him uncle. The wedding wasnt too bad. It was held at Chancellor Hall UBD...the only thing that kinda bothered me was the loooooong wait for everything to start. All in all it was pretty pleasant. Popo and Ningkuku were the only other representatives from my immediate family. I didnt realise I had so many malay relatives!!

New Year's Eve was quiet but nice. Spent it with Javian, Kok Liang and Felicia. Dayat came a lot later. We spent the evening trying to finish as much of the food that we could. Needless to say, we were expecting so many more people. It wasn't much of a NYE party though. We spent some time playing poker, cho tai ti and drinking. It was fun. I was meant to sleep over but it felt a bit weird so I drove home at around 3. Haha. I think I still had alcohol in my system but was 'sober' enough to drive. Short drive anyways and there werent anymore road blocks. *phew*

Now, I'm just waiting for 5pm to arrive. I'm finally gonna be able to drive dad's precious Jag!! Haha...There's a dinner tonight at Dynasty. I'm gonna try and be as pleasant as possible. 3ee and Ron will be hosting the dinner...haha...my first step into the new year in living up to my resolutions. 2008 is gonna be a good year people!!!

BruOz Summer Games - Muara Beach & Padang Kebajikan

2007-12-31T00:05:00.000+08:00

2 days till 2008...

2007-12-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Wow...2007 came and went...good thing it went by so quickly...wasnt particularly a good year for me. Apparently next year will be though.

Hopes and wishes for 2008:
- to lose weight
- to do well in uni...have to get my H2A average at least.
- to form strong friendships and eliminate all those time wasters
- just to be the best I can be.

I know...pretty vague and self centred but yea...I'm like that.

I didnt do much today. Went to church this morning and had lunch with the family. We went to Thien2 first and I'm pretty surprised coz I didnt give in to hunger when I saw Chicken Rice (vegetarian remember?) I suppose it's coz I was really craving Kway Teow...haha..but the stupid thing is that when we went to the Seria Kway Teow place, we sat down and they told us that they were out of kway teow...whhhhaaaat?? haha...so yea..there I was sulking...not literally lah...we went to another restaurant...Ching Nam Hong *spelling* and they didnt have Kway Teow there either...so I just settled for a tausa pao *spelling* for lunch..haha..sad right ?

Since Wei, Steve and Sophie are still sick, we tapao-ed food for them and spent most of the afternoon at their place. Got our belated Xmas presents and just watched homevideos of their UK trip. Sophie's soooo cute!! Unfortunately we ended up going home pretty early coz dad wasnt feeling too good. I dont know what it was...probably the food or something.

I ended up watching lots of smallville, how I met your mother and Las Vegas when I got back. I only just stopped watching to type up this post. Also, I ran out of stuff to watch. It's alright though. It's late. I gotta head to bed anyways...got work tomorrow...=( Maybe I'll get my pay tomorrow...who knows right ?

It's New Year's Eve tomorrow...I suppose I'll be going to Jav's place to hang out...will probably end up staying the night coz of all the 'no drinking and driving' rules. The weird thing is, dad just said "No Booze" lolz...what's NYE without booze? Geez man!! Dont cramp my style. Haha. So I kinda just told him "whatever, I'm staying over anyways..." I told him 3 times today...I hope he gets the message and not try to call me tomorrow night after I've had a few drinks to tell me to go home...that would really suck!!! Anyhooz...I'll try to post pictures again...but no promises...crappy connection!!

I wish I was thin...:(

2007-12-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

Feeling a bit emo at the moment...My bro told me I was fat. So I went into my dad's room asking him to buy ingredients to put me on a juice diet so I could detox. But that also means starving myself so I can lose weight. But my dad doesnt believe in starvation...so I used 'detoxing' as a guise...

Aaron and I were at a Confirmation reunion at church earlier. It wasn't all that great. No one from my year showed up and it was mainly pinoys. So Aaron, Bea and I ran out right after dinner. We went to Taurean and well, we didnt tell anyone that we were leaving. We felt guilty for a while coz Jen, one of the people who work at the church, messaged Bea asking where we were. She was like "We were looking everywhere for you 3 but we couldnt find you and we got a bit worried". LoLz.

Anyhooz...I was talking to Wil just now and he said somethings that got me annoyed and as usual, he didnt realise it. So yea, I got pissed off and told him to continue drinking til he passes out on Dave's floor. He was like "that's not very nice!!" In my head I was saying "Deal with it!"

He's going to KK tomorrow till the 1st of January anyways so whatever...at least he doesnt have to deal with me. So yea...plans are coming in for NYE...it looks like if nothing else comes up, I might end up going to Jav's place for NYE....sounds good to me..small gathering. No expectations.

Anyhooz..I'm gonna go drown myself in Smallville...Laterz..

I want to be a tarot card reader!!

2007-12-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

Nas did my tarot card reading this afternoon..it was so cool...apparently, at the moment, my relationship status is in turmoil and I am not one to settle for just anyone. I pulled 'the lovers' card which represents the person that is perfect for me in everyway. The only way I can attain this goal of meeting this person is if I let go of all emotional baggage. Easier said than done right ? I dont even know where to begin in doing that.

Oh yea...one more reason why yesterday sucked...my camera memory card got corrupted and I didnt manage to save the latest pictures...so sad...luckily I backed up a lot of my pictures. Before I format the card, I'll try to go over it again.

Back to tarot...I think I might want to start learning how to read them. It seems so cool...nothing like black magic or anything...it's all energy...so yea...no harm doing that...I wanna get my cards when I go to singapore or even back to melbourne...by next yr, I hope to be quite pro at it =) Can probably start charging per reading...haha...no lah..just kidding...

Anyhooz, watching Stardust...again...boring...at least Sophie, Wei and Steve will be back on friday...and tomorrow is going to be a really fun day...well...fun night at least...I'm gonna go check out e bay for tarot cards...tata...

the one santa forgot.

2007-12-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

Yes...sad as it sounds...I feel as though I've been forgotten. I really didnt do much today...apart from lunch with family, my day totally blew.

Went for lunch at the Airport Restaurant. Saw so many familiar faces there...I was really excited coz I ran into Tat Seng and his family. He looks the same as I remembered...only taller and stuff..saw BW's aunty and the rest of his family, Jasper, Aaron's friend Denise, the Woods, and other random people. I have to say, lunch was quite disappointing...I took a lot of food...but kinda wasted it...so in the end I didnt really eat alot....

This is the first sucky Xmas I've had...even the Xmas before the A levels results came out was a lot better. What a waste of my day off...:( I only got like...one present today and there werent any parties coz tomorrow people are working...so Aaron and I went to the Mall, didn't get to watch a movie at 2ish when we got there coz it was so packed. We went to Seri Q-lap instead and we watched Aliens Vs Predators 2 at 5.15pm...It sucked!!! I'd give it an E...

It was the first time the both of us watched a movie at the Qlap mall...Very VERY bad impression on me I guess...first of all, we got crap seats...we ended up sitting 2 rows from the screen...we had really annoying people sitting in front of us who kept talking and laughing out loud at scenes that werent even funny...and the cinema smelled like raw pork...it was weird...so yea...all in all...one word sums up my Xmas of 07....SHIT....

Santa totally forgot me...maybe my letter didnt reach him in time. Oh well..Santa...I'm always open to belated gifts...=D

I dont want a lot for xmas..

2007-12-24T17:45:00.001+08:00

Dear Santa...
I've been oh so good this year. I'm not asking for a lot but here's my list. Funny enough, they're not really materialistic things. I know you have a lot of other lists to complete and this is coming quite late so I wouldnt be too mad if you cant fulfill all my wants. But please...at least a couple of things yea?

a. I'd like to find out who my real friends are.
b. I'd like some eye candy this year and next year.
c. Gimme something concrete to work with in terms of relationships.
d. I'd like an IMac...(this is the only materialistic thing that I really want)

See...that wasnt too bad now was it ? Haha...Anyhooz, I hope to see you soon (although, I know I probably wont coz you've got your ways of doing things without being seen and all).

Love,
Stephz

I'm a baked potato..

2007-12-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

Haha..SUNBURNT!!! haha...I had ooodles and oodles of fun just now at the Kebajikan track. There weren't many Melburnians but still, I managed to make a few new friends, meet up with old friends and scout for hot people.

I met Najaa's bf, Faiq, her cousin, Fatin...Met up with Brit, Humphrey, Ansari, Naz, Sa'dy, Hamirul, Papz...ooooh and lots of other people. It was quite fun. Ying and Shin managed to convince me to play netball when I got there coz they didnt have enough people. It's been so long since I've last played man!! What..since form 2 ? But yea, I went somewhat reminiscent when I was allowed to play centre again. =D It was quite embarrassing coz I somehow managed to tear my black beach pants *sobs*...luckily Shin (my saviour) had a spare pair for me to use...haha...I wonder if anyone saw my really really fair legs? Hmmmm.....haha...oh well...

There are pics of me running on Reeda's blog..it's quite cool...haha...Anyhooz, I just thought I'd put up the pics that I have on my camera at the moment. I just realised that there are sooo many pics that I have yet to put up from before wei, steve and soph went to UK. I'll put those up as well if I get the chance to...but first things first....the pics that I have from today and yesterday...Enjoy =)

Ooooh...I forgot to mention...I've got 17 blooming sandfly bites...oh joy? haha...

Success with the beach BBQ people!!

2007-12-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

The Beach BBQ was a blast!!! It was definitely worth the effort in preparing it..At first, it was a bit weird coz I couldnt get a proper response for my activities..but then after a while..it got better...the obstacle course wasnt as much a hit as the beach footy..but still quite good...I played in team Peace...which consisted of Soon Tiong, Rady, Me, Waz and Zafirah...but towards the semi finals, the other girls had to leave so we subed in William and Kim..haha...it was so good.

In the first match we played, we went against Spice Girls Brunei Tour which was made up of Ilie, Nadiah, Jihan, Jo and Alyaa..we won that match 4-0...In our semi finals we went against Hugely Maginificent Aura and we lost 4-2...haha...oh well..I'm still happy with the score coz like..I scored one goal!!! Haha...it was so unexpected coz like I was the ONLY girl left playing since waz and zaf left.

It was so much fun in the end. Pictures will be up soon. I have to wait to get pics from Ying or someone coz I brought my camera but left it in the car coz I had to keep running around...met so many people and at the end of the day, I can safely say that the bash was a success!!! Good going BruMelb!! =)

Went to the sunset mass just now coz I figured I may as well make an appearance at the second round of the games tomorrow...haha..looking at people is fuuuun...=) Especially hot people. Yes ...I'm over 'him'...it took a while to figure out that it wouldnt be ideal to dive into a relationship such as the one he has in mind. I dont think he gets it though. It's complicated I suppose. So whatever, it doesnt hurt to look right ?

At church, I saw JK...he's married now. It was an arranged marriage and it doesnt seem like he's really enjoying it..nor is the girl..but hey...if your parents really want you married, there are only 2 options...run away or heed the advice...and I suppose, seeing as he's never really left home before...he chose the latter...he wasnt as perky/smiley as he used to be. Marriage broke him...haha....

Anyhooz..I'm hungry..havent eaten all day. Time for food to satisfy me..haha..laterz...

Success with the beach BBQ people!!

2007-12-22T20:18:00.001+08:00

a secret I'll never tell...

2007-12-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

Ok....so it seems we wont be getting together after all...end of story...I dont think I'll be explaining anymore in this blog...of course certain people may be able to guess what happened but still..not gonna be explained over the net...but rest assured that our friendship will still remain strong. =)

So...I got a lot done today.. After work, we went to get stuff for the beach bbq and went to muara beach to survey the area...I had a bit of a headache coz I was 'smart' enough to decide to read the newspaper in the car...yea...I totally spaced on the fact that I regularly get motion sickness..

Anyhooz..I know I said I'd blog a lot more tonight but lets just face it...I'm totally not in the mood to blog at the moment...what I want to say cant be relayed over the net for regular eyes...lets just say, for those of you who know me...I had to play really loud music on my drive home...and when I got back, I started banging on my piano. For those who know me really well, you know what that means...Laterz

you and me...we've got chemistry...

2007-12-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

Imagine this...working on a public holiday!!! Haha...oh well..news never sleeps right ? Not like I do anything anyways..haha...I was meant to post a vlog a couple of days ago but up til now, I just cant get it published...booo...internet in Brunei sucks....

This has to be a really really short post...at work at the moment..not quite meant to be doing this...but oh well...nothing to do right ?

I'll post again later tonight...Tata...

2nd video blog ever!!!

2007-12-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

messing around with the isight

2007-12-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

so this is the story...

2007-12-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

I just got off the phone with him and here's the story. Apparently, he WAS upset with what I said earlier and he didnt say anything coz he had a lot on his mind. He wants to get back together with me again but he's worried that things may end up the way they did the first time we were together. So it's sorta like an "I-want-to-but-dont-want-to-at-the-same-time" sort of situation.

So I told him that if that was the case, then we should just remain in the type of relationship we're in now. People around us are getting skeptical though. My cuz was just asking really suspicious questions such as "Are you and him....close?" Coz my cuz and him are really tight together...I know that sounds wrong but yea...it's the truth.

He asked me what I wanted to do...and I told him that I'd leave it up to him to decide and he was like...but this is serious...it's a big deal. And I was just indifferent. I know. Bad sign right ? I dont even know if I want to be in that sort of relationship with him...or if I'm doing this out of boredom again...sigh..I think I like things the way they are at the moment but at the same time...I dont want him dating anyone while I'm back...selfish right ? I cant help it!! Anyhooz..I think it's time for bed...got work tomorrow and I need to go to MOE to FINALLY hand in my transcripts...niteyz..I'm outey...

now we wait and see...

2007-12-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

I just got back from the Berakas Forest Reserve...oh ocean...how I've missed thee...I have a feeling there'll be a lot of questions flying around Baiduri Bank tomorrow regarding Will and I...I mean...seeing as he left the company bbq to come pick me up and then we went MIA for a while coz I wanted to take a walk on the beach. I swear that's all it was.

After that we went down to Muara beach to get sotong but then, couldnt find any...so we just got some cucur...haha...anyhooz..I told him that he'd get some weird and probing questions tomorrow and he said uncertainly that he'd answer that I was his "special friend"...then he changed his answer to "best friend".

I kinda forced him to tell me the story about the message he accidentally sent to me the other day. He unwillingly told me. He said it was just about this other girl that likes him but he doesnt like her the same way. He was actually meant to hang out with her that night he came over but he told her that he was busy. So in other words, she was ditched for me. Then I was like...oh is that all ? Haha...then he was like.." I thought you'd be a bit upset bout it"...then I told him "it's not like we're together or anything"...then all went silent in the car...he looked a bit upset as he drove me back to my car...I dunno...well..now, we wait and see what happens...will he get with the girl coz now he's been given the green light? or...will he still be in contact with me ?

I'll leave that question 'out there'..and will let you all know what happens...sigh...this is me...creating my own drama again. I think tonight I should be watching the Bee movie before I go to bed...there's nothing better to do.

I woke up this morning feeling like I wanted to go to the beach. It seems, excitement surrounds me...cant wait for the beach bbq on sat...Muara beach is sooooo pretty!!! haha...

rock on by...

2007-12-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

Tonight was one of the suckiest saturday nights every. I dunno...disappointing. At least I made it quite clear that nothing would be happening between me and him. *sigh*...the feeling blows though. He's got too much going on. Too much that I dont want to interfere with. I want drama but not of that sort. Kokoz have been telling me not to do anything stupid. So I'll take advice where necessary and find other fish.

Brunei's so boring man!!! Went for dinner at La Mee just now and walked around a bit...ran into a few friends, San2, Kui Ren, Rita, Cheng koko (but he didnt see me). It was a nice feeling seeing familiar faces again. But then, people kept thinking I was 'with' him coz we were walking around together. Weird how it works here. People automatically think you're 'with' someone just coz you walk around with them and not in a group. Geez...

Oh yea...my parents were quite surprised that I came home so early today. My shoe broke. Haha...It always happens. I guess it's time to go shoe shopping. Haha. Sorry Denise, couldnt make it to your party. Hope you have a really good time. Sorry Rach, I thought you knew more people at the party. Haha..I'll make it up to you. Lemme know when you're free to hang out and stuff...

Goodness...I'm so bored..He ditched me to go to a party at a villa at the Empire. Boo~~ I cant recall if he asked me to join but I dont think I would've. We dont want a retake of yesterday's lunch now do we ? Feeling left out really sucks. It's funny how things can unravel so quickly. Damn. I think I'm getting emo again. I think I'd better stop rambling and do something like watch a movie or something...

I really do create my own drama....dont I ?

2007-12-15T11:04:00.000+08:00

Damn...I feel stupd now. Maybe I just dont know the full story. Maybe what I saw really wasnt what actually was true...I dunno...

ok here's the story. He came over and we watched a movie together...we watched "The Prestige". It was very innocent. It was so obvious that the chemistry we had was still there. It got from us sitting totally apart to us making ourselves comfortable enough to watch the movie. I dunno. It seemed really innocent to me. I ended up falling asleep in his arms. Then the movie ended. It was time for him to leave. Just before leaving, he kissed me. It kinda caught me by surprise. So yea, I thought we had something there...

So when he left, I kinda had this floaty thingy going on. I went to sleep on the couch. Funny enough, at around 10 past 4 in the morning, I got a message. A message that he accidentally sent to me. A message that was destined for some other girl. It said "Hey Syg, Jus wondering ig ur back. I'm reli Sori abt just now." For those who dont know, Syg is malay for darling...so yea...I texted him back saying "Lol. I think you sent the message to a wrong number"...I dont know what I was thinking but at the endof the message I put in a =). Genius man...I am...geezz...
Oh yea, then after that, he replied me saying "Ops. Sori. Had a misunderstanding wid the gal jus now. Hehe. "

So yea, I realy dont know what to make of all this. I feel stupid. Like I've been played...eventhough nothing really happened between us. should I really go along with ying and do the whole break-it-off-after-2-weeks sort of relationship ? Sigh I dunno...I feel really stupid at the moment...and to think...this was my ex...is he getting revenge for how we ended it back then ? I need help :(

I almost died today...

2007-12-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

Ok so I didnt start today off on a good note. Was in sort of a mood and when I went out to go to work, I almost got hit on the round about...not my fault ok. I was driving correctly...this idiotic woman driver (driving a white Atos) was in the inner lane...going quite slowly...and when she saw me cross her path, she sped up and cut across my lane. I had to do major emergency braking and I really put pressure on the horn!! Damn...I was shaking so hard after that...and there was a point where I felt like crying coz of what could've happened...but I managed to keep it together. When I got to the office, I was just trembling so badly and I walked in really solemn. It was good that Anna was there...we talked and stuff, eventually I got over it. But I think I suffered a bit of whiplash and spasms in my back, left leg and left arm...shit...should be alright now I guess...

The day got better at least. Had lunch with Will, Dave, Darlis and the whooooooole rugby gang...crayzee I tell ya...I sooo wasnt expecting that! But at least I sorta had fun altho I kinda felt left out. Oh well..Wil didnt tell me bout it ok...Junior Rugby tournament is on now...I sooo wanted to watch Singapore vs Hong Kong but I went to cut my hair instead...haha...Oh yea...forgot to mention that I cut my hair yea? Haha..well, it's short...

I feel like I'm losing my grip on him...damn...oh well...if it's not meant to be then it's not meant to be right ? boo...oh well..I'm going to go try on my dress now, and take a pic and email to rach and ying to show them...only coz they asked...haha...Laterz..

annoyance is my middle name

2007-12-12T18:46:00.000+08:00

I think what I'm doing is so wrong...I dont know if it's coz I'm just bored or if I really have genuine feelings for him. But yea, we've been out for breakfast for two consecutive days already. We seem to work really well together...why this relationship didnt work out before is beyond me...haha

Anyhooz...I think I should be out to watch Enchanted later on. Yay! I'm in need of a happy movie..there's just so much stress in my life at the moment. I swear...if I wasnt really this stable, I'd be suicidal!! Goodness...I really need something happy...I cant stand the mother...I cant stand her sister...I cant stand a lot of things these days. My tolerance level has gone down the toilet. Moving back to what I was talking about to begin with, if I didnt have my friends and him to talk to in the morning, I really wouldnt know what to do.

There's a lot more going on than I could care to talk about now. I swear...if there wasnt the little baby here to calm my anger, I'd punch a hole through the wall..or worse...through someone's face...

Sorry...very bad post today...

God saw my car was dirty so he sent the rain...

2007-12-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

It was raining cats and dogs...pissing down in sheets...however you'd like to put it...bottomline, it was raining so damn hard just now and all of a sudden...nothing..what? haha...

Staying at my sister's place tonight. She didnt want to drive back alone so I figured I'd tag along. Helped her with a few xmas things and well, now I'm done. I feel a twinge of guilt seeing as I've left this blog to neglect right after that really really angry last post.

Been working for what...five days now....and well, I dont think I've really accomplished much. I've only managed to write 2 press releases so far...oh wait...3...and did some research on Japan and the Broadband Internet usage in Brunei but that was about it. No byline for me just yet...haha...it was so cool coz just now I got to scan my thumbs so I can access the office without a card or having to bother the receptionists...haha..fun fun...sakai bah...wanna say what?!! haha..ok..that was my moment of weirdness..

Anyhooz, I think it's slightly weird coz W and I are getting well acquainted all over again. Sure, we went out like 2 years ago...but that didnt work out coz we decided to start dating after, what, 2 days of just meeting each other. I think I was on the rebound then. It seemed I hurt him quite a bit when I dumped him. But at least he's forgiven me now and well, we've both grown up substantially. So, potential relationship ? I dunno...I dont know if I should delve into this again...would it be a bad idea ? I mean, now, there is so much more at stake. Before, he was just this random guy that I met through my cousin...but now, he knows my sister, my brother in law, he's really REALLY close with my other cousin...so the question remains...would it be a bad idea to start dating him again? Hmmmm....I'll leave the question out there...but yea, it's nice having someone to be able to have a heart-to-heart convo with again.

It's gonna be a really early morning for me tomorrow so I think I should get going...nitez all...

just gimme one night to drink my blues away..

2007-12-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Got home about an hour ago from my sister's place. My bro and his friend came back to my house very tipsy and reeking of alcohol. I wish I could let loose like that here...well....I know I can but I have to be a certain type of person in front of my parents. Looking at my brother, my dad was already like "*sigh*this generation ah..."

I dont know..but i think I'm emo again. All these people living the high life around me. People making plans and executing them without me...people who make plans and forget about them while forgetting to inform me...I know...me me me...I'm feeling self centred at the moment...DEAL WITH IT or FUCK OFF!!! It's my blog...MY WORLD. I can spend this whole post talking about me if I want to.

So yea...all these people...forgetting to call back...forgetting to message back. It's not like Brunei's such a 'happening' place that there's not enough time to call or text back. Sheesh...I am emo and feeling self centred for a reason. Who says I dont get my bouts of low self esteem. *sigh*

I just want to go out and have fun with my friends...but then, when I sit and think about it..."What friends?" Everyone has their own lives ahead of them...separate groups of friends...separate plans. Know the feeling where you can never be included ? Welcome to my life. This is the world of cliques where I don't belong.

Oh yea..results are out. Not very please but hey, passed all my subjects...got 3 H3's and 1 P...the P was for Literature, Culture, History. No surprise there. I can always predict which subject I will do the worst in. The funny thing is that all my H3's are of the same percentage...what fucked up shit is that ? Is there like...an inside joke or something involving 67% ? Geez....

I can safely say that I'm having a fucked up night...

Today I met a moviestar...

2007-12-06T17:57:00.000+08:00

I was actually planning on being really bored today so I really didnt want to go to work. Glad I did though. Chief Reporter decided to be really really nice to me and relocated me to a different assignment. I got put on a beat with the KACA kids..and get this...MIRIAM YEUNG. I managed to talk with her a bit and took a picture with her. I have yet to pick the picture off my colleague but yea...I did take a picture with her...*starstruck*

I'm just so amazed by how celebrities are just ordinary people put under the spotlight. And OMG!!! she's so pretty (in the girl next door sort of way =D) So yea, thats what I did today. Did another press release (albeit, quite badly...sorry chief) and went on this assignment. I hope to do a lot better tomorrow. I dont know why they bother taking me on as an intern when they dont really have much to give me. But oh well, at least I've got a job and I'm sorta 'earning' my experience. I'm not complaining...no no no...I was just wondering and all...haha..people there are so friendly..=)

Hmmm...I wonder if I work on weekends...lolz...

Brunei Times

2007-12-05T19:06:00.001+08:00

My freedom is no longer existent this summer. I dont know why I find it so easy to write when it comes to blogging but when I have to write articles or do research where there are other people in the room (eventhough they do their own thing) I just cant concentrate. Maybe tomorrow I should bring in my Ipod and a book. Hmmm...

Today was good. I started w0rk at 2.30...tomorrow. I start at 10. Got this assignment to do in the morning and then in the afternoon, I have to go with one of the subeditors to a beat where she'll be covering the story. All I have to do is tag along. I'm guessing for the experience. I met quite a few people today. I didnt really do much. I did like one press release and research on Japan..but that was about it. I felt it was quite tiring coz I spent quite a lot of time doing nothing and feeling so totally out of place. At least I knew SOME people there...like...Sham and Naz..haha..anyhooz..

I've had enough of looking at words. Was just gonna keep this post short seeing as I've already posted once today.

Oh yea...and another one of my petpeeves...NO FUCKING MSN AT WORK.../:(

why did you have to be there..?

2007-12-05T12:02:00.000+08:00

My bad luck. The song Happy Ending was made for you and me.

I got up surprisingly early today. Went for training which was meant to begin at 8am this morning...but seeing as I wasnt expected to be there, I decided to rock up at about 9. Good work out I say. I missed the feeling of moving so quick that my feet felt like they were burning. It was a good sweat session. If I do this everyday, I dont think I'd need to go to the gym...save money right ? Well, our 4man training session lasted till 11am. I dont get the brunei logic of training. Train for 2 hours, rest for half an hour...haha...slackers...anyhooz...it was alright I guess..

I had to go to Gdg properties just now to pay off my phone bill. Bloody line got barred YET AGAIN. As I was turning into the area, I saw mum's car...and mum getting out. Apparently she was there to sell Nefful, so after I parked my car, I went to go find her. We sat down at the Coffeebean for a while and she said she wanted to have lunch and stuff. So while waiting for dst to work through the numbers to get to mine, I sat with her and 2ee...I took a look around and guess who I saw ? Matt Y with his gf. Upon this sight, I lost all appetite and will to be there...all I wanted to do was sit at the table till I had to walk away. But no, mum made me get up and walk around with her to look for food. So I tried to be as discreet as I could and walked past their table. I hope he was too engrossed with what he was doing on his laptop to realise that it was me who went by. *sigh* everything comes back to haunt you when you try to suppress memories, no?

Anyhooz, I'm $100 poorer coz I had to pay off part of my running credit in order to get my line disbarred. Boo~ I hate the way the phone system works. But yea, I finally got my line upgraded to the $55 plan but it'll only be in effect from the 16th of Dec. So till then, I still wont really be texting or calling anyone unless need be coz at present, my phone bill is already at about $48. So yea...I gotta get ready for work at 2.30.

WHY IS BRUNEI SO BLOODY HOT?!!

phone's been barred AGAIN!!

2007-12-04T20:48:00.001+08:00

Dammit...why does my phone keep getting barred every couple of weeks ? it's really annoying!! Tell ya what I'm gonna do...I'm gonna go into the DST office tomorrow and pay the outstanding bill..AND I'm going to change my current plan to the $55 dollar plan. I should have done this a couple of weeks ago, regardless of what my dad says...it's pissing me off...:(

Tabletennis really brings out the worst in me. I realised that recently. Well, I may have noticed this ages ago but it's been quite bad lately....I tore my rubber just now while playing against this guy I should've won. I swear..there are people here that just have a knack pissing me off sooo badly. I dont know what it is...the lack of education? the lack of a filter? volume control? Well..there's this one particular guy that keeps shouting "Spin...spin...or Smash Smash..." everytime I hit the ball...and when my opponent manages to get a tricky ball in...he outwardly laughs at me...like not just a normal laugh...but a ROARING laugh...it's so disconcerting...I gave him the dirty glare earlier and decided to shut up. A bit too late though...I was already quite pissed off..that was when I accidentally whacked my bat into the side of the table causing the rubber to rip..:( I felt my heart break...it's so new..:(

Anyhooz I just felt as though I should blog about that...so sad...

On the brighter side of things...I just took a shower so I'm feeling pretty fresh. Just waiting for dad to get back so I can eat dinner and have a chat with him. =) Oh yea, I got the Brunei Times job as an intern. Will be going in tomorrow to sign the agreement. Shaaril has been calling me all day (or so he claims) but the funny thing is that, random phone numbers have only been registered in my miss calls list since 5ish...so I dont know if he's been overexaggerating or if my phone has just gone plain bonkers...but what he said was nice.."we've decided to take you on board"...haha...I know it sounds pretty normal..but I think it's a nice way to put "you're hired.." haha...

Anyhooz...internet connection is crap. I'm gonna go read my book or something...Laterz

eeeew...ugly picture

2007-12-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

Why's it so hot today?!! :( I wanna go out but the heat's just making me feel really bad. I was just texted by Wil and he was like "nice picture on rano's blog.." so I went by to take a look...such a bad picture!! Talk about candid shots right...arrrgh....I hate candid shots.

Anyhooz, I was just thinking, when I get back to Melb, I want to get a desktop. I was thinking either the iMac or a normal dell desktop. Whatever it is, it must help me conserve space, judging by how tiny my bedroom in Melb is. Somehow, I need to dream up a way to fund my desktop purchases though. I think i've had enough of laptops already. I sat the test at Brunei Times yesterday. Michael C was like, "Ok, we've passed your article along to our editor and we'll get back to you tomorrow or something". It didnt sound too good...:( I mean, I thought I did alright and all...but you know..they might have different things in mind. Part of me wants to work...another part of me just wants to enjoy my holidays...I dunno...I feel like bumming this whole summer break to the point where as soon as I get back, I'd be in full study mode. Not so sure if that can happen or not.

Shit man!! It's so hot, my eczema's feeling all prickly. To think, I was actually planning on going to the beach today...haha....bbq-ed steph anyone? I'm so bored. I read quite a bit of my book already and I'm just waiting for Ying to msg me. we're supposed to be chilling today. Maybe she's just really busy at the hospital and stuff..I've been watching youtube quite a bit lately. HappySlip is funny!~~ Much better than thewinekone. Yes yes...i still hold a grudge against thewinekone. I'm just doing some research for possible desktops now...so bored...waiting for aaron to come back from school so he can 'entertain' me...

Wanna know how bored I've been ? I'll put up a couple of pictures to show you guys later...=)

feeling very slack.

2007-12-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

Okay...I feel like I've been letting my fellow committee members of BSSMelb down a bit. So here's to me pulling my socks up.

Things to do:
.x. find 1 or 2 volunteer beach football referees - who know what they're doing in terms of the sport
.x. find 1 or 2 volunteer beach volleyball umpires along with the rules of the game
.x. take a look around Muara Beach to see what they already have there in terms of volleyball and football utilities
.x. bug people who have contacts in either JIS or ISB to see if we can borrow equipment (we're minimizing costs here)
.x. have a fun time doing all this.

Lolz...I dunno..I feel all alone here...I hate this feeling. Anyhooz, I still have to try my best to get all this done. HAKIM...ILIE...where are you people ?!!! Haha...Anyhooz...first things first, I'll be having a talk with a dude at the Brunei Times later on. Hopefully all will go well. Then after that, i'll either be playing table tennis or going to the beach. Haha. That is, if I can get hold of Kim...he's been quite difficult to track down lately...

I just finished watching all the episodes of downloads that I had on my brother's pc and now...i'm just plain bored...boo...I've been putting up with the naggings of BROKEN RECORD and I figured, it's something I can live without...so from now on, I'll just be ignoring her. Coz she just goes on and on and on and on.....so yea...not worth the high blood pressure...haha...

I think I should do something more profitable now...like say....watch tv or something...I'm bored...sigh...

how to save a life

2007-12-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

I think I may need to find a new housemate. Someone who doesnt make me feel this much stress when I realise that the rent money from my end is going to come in a couple of days late. She's got me trippin' I tell ya!

Not my fault I sent the money already from my Brunei account. How was I supposed to know that it takes 3 working days to reach Australia. Boo...she's gonna have my head man! I really wonder what late fees are like...hmm...oh well..I hope she senses my stress...I sent 2 emails...after sending the money...Nothing I can do about it now. It's outta my hands I tell ya...

Shit man...it doesnt really take all that much to stress me out eh?

Anyhooz, the old farts are gone. I've FINALLY gotten my room back. All cleaned up, fumigated and air freshened of course. So yea...I've got my private space back. I havent been out all day. It's been a day of watching Bionic woman, listening about patents, sleeping and frowning. I think today alone has made me age an extra 5 years quicker than normal. LoLz. I want to post pictures but I just cant be fucked...

I was looking through youtube earlier, talking to Sean about various vloggers. He was saying that thewinekone is much better than communitychannel. I seriously beg to differ. I cant stand thewinekone. Watching his videos make me feel as though I'm getting dumber. It just gave me a migraine to watch that crap. I apologise to all thewinekone's supporters...but I really cant stand him. Haha. He is NO WAY better than Communitychannel...she rox my sox...haha...

Anyways, I'll be posting a couple of pictures from the National Business Conference. The pictures have absolutely nothing to do with the conference itself...it's just a few vanity shots..haha...ooh ooh...and there's this REALLY hot guy in Bionic Woman...Jordan Bridges...but apparently he was only a guest star...boo...:(

Me and Shi Ping

put me out of house and home..

2007-12-01T08:53:00.000+08:00

You coming here really inconveniences me!! You come back to Brunei thinking you're such a bigshot coz you've landed a man with big bucks. STAY IN A FUCKING HOTEL THEN!!! My goodness! Since you've been here, you've been nothing but trouble. I've given up my bedroom as well as the bedroom that I've been made to stay in during your stay.

What do I get in return ? I get yelled at. This morning, you come rushing into my room at 8.45am forcing me to get out of bed coz there'll be people coming over to use the internet in Aaron's room...all I said was...the wireless DOES work. I use it all the time and as retaliation, I get " You know ah...you're so different when compared to when you are in Melbourne..." NO SHIT SHERLOCK!! I'm different in Melb because you're fucking different in Melbourne. You're only nice to me there coz you want me to take you to the fucking casino...now that you're here, everything must be FIRST CLASS. You cant even bear to stay in your OWN HOUSE, you need to come to mine. Shit man. I've always known that I hated you. I just thought that you'd change, what being married and all. Apparently not, you havent changed. You're gonna die with lots of people hating you. Just coz you have a constant supply of income now doesnt mean you'll have genuine friends. Think about it. You had a networking party last night. How many people turned up that werent family? Even your whole family didnt want to turn up. Loser.

I know your secrets. I know what can bring you down. STAY AWAY FROM ME. (The things you tell me when you want other things can really really kill you)

taking care of Sophie

2007-11-30T09:41:00.000+08:00

I'm ovr at my sister's place now taking care of the little girl..I swear she's so adorable but boy can she SCREAM!!! Haha....she just got up from her nap so I may have to keep this quite short.

Anyhooz, I havent really been blogging much coz up til yesterday I was working with AIF on the National Business Conference. I have to admit, when I first started, I was like...oh no...back to the life of endless lists and making phne calls. But, fortunately, that didnt last long. Al put me on press release and media duty (which was soooo much more fun, by the way). I got to meet Shi Ping and she was a blast to hang out with. I was allowed to tag along on her interviews and meet all the interviewees who rank mostly in the CEO/Department head sectors...that was cool.

We did a lot of gossiping as well. And frankly, Im sad to see her leave Brunei back to Sg...:( But yea...her flight leaves in 45 mins...safe trip SP...haha...she taught me a bit about freelance journalism which I'm happy about.

Anyhooz, it's breakfast time for me and time to play with the little girl. She seems pretty intrigued, looking at me as I put this post up.

Oh yea, I forgot to mention that I met Rano (for the second time at the NBC) and Reeda for the first time along with members from Brunei Press, Brunei Times, Media Permata and Miri Daily. Talk about good exposure right?

Fobissea Music Festival

2007-11-24T23:48:00.001+08:00

I just got back from the Empire...the Music Festival was really great!! I had a lot of fun listening to the music through blocked (due to flu) ears..haha

The kids did a really good job. Very inspiring..now I feel like learning the violin more than ever. My goal of being a clarinet player is still alive..but I was thinking..what if I get the flu just before a recital...I wont be able to play. I wont be able to blow if my nose is blocked right ? Haha.

Had an excapade lunch with Anlan, Aaron and Kim...it was quite good..I ate soooo much...oh yea...I'm trying to go back to my old eating habits...so I wont be touching red meat or poultry anymore. So it'll just be fish, egg and veges for me. It seems my skin cant handle my eating habits so I have to make a change. Good luck...let's see how long I can keep this up.

Tomorrow Wei and Steve will be going to Macau for a wedding so lil Sophie will be staying at my place till they get back...which will be Tuesday. Yay!! I cant get enough of that little girly. She's sooo sweet...even when she's sick and pooey...haha...well, Heidi (the maid) will be here so I wont really have to worry about the poo moments...haha...

Kim (my cousin) just got back from Melb today. I did want to chat with her but she wasnt in a very good mood so our convo was cut really short. Anyhooz..that was just a random bit of info. I'm waiting for the pics from the Music Festival to upload so my blog wont look quite so boring..haha...it's taking a while though. I've got a couple of videos as well..so it'll take a while..haha

Aaron and I doing our usual thing

Aaron and Munah

At the beginning with the gulintangans...

I'll post more pictures another time..the internet is a bit screwy at the moment so cant get much done...LAterz